dojoloach Posted September 4, 2008 Share Posted September 4, 2008 I have no getup and go. Like, if I am a car, my engine does not turn over. I don't even know if it makes that clicking sound when you turn the key. I'm on lots of pills. I spend much time inside, isolating. I've got lupus and yes, I'm depressed, distressed, anxious and all. Adderall XR just isn't doing enough for me. It does something, especially for the hour or two with/after morning coffee. It's great for hyperfocusing (this is both good and bad), and when I'm productive, it's thanks to Adderall. But, Adderall is not getting me through the day. My fatigue and inertia are debilitating. Here are the pills I take. I'd like to cut back, but I just moved to a new city and none of my new doctors wanna touch my mix yet. Adderall XR 30mg; Klonopin 1mg; Cymbalta 60; Wellbutrin (IR) 350; Plaquenil 400; Metformin 1000; Aldactone 100; Claritin, Albuterol; Prevacid 60; Zantac who knows; Fever Few (Mygrafew); umm...I think that's it. O, Mucinex daily and Tums for kicks. Sometimes Tylenol (NSAIDs/Aspirin done tore up my stomach). Has anyone ever been on both Provigil and Adderall at the same time? If so, how'd that go? Is it a bad idea to combine the two? I'd like to see if Provigil would help me out. If I could do it without taking Adderall away, would that be safer or less likely to rock the boat? Or is my boat/liver already screwed 'cause it is all filled up with pills? I do have a lower seizure threshold than other kids, it seems, and have had one grand mal due to an accidental overdose of Wellbutrin, once upon a time. If anyone has ideas as far as which crazy med I might try cutting down/out of my mix, such advice is quite welcome. It's tough, 'cause I need to feel better and I don't know which meds are the ones keeping me up and mostly non-suicidal right now. Sorta like Jenga, no? ps - this loss of go power, of drive and all, has been going on for a few years now. Cymbalta helped by allowing me to once again desire some things in life, although I'm still not excited about things enough to get out there and try to get them. Procrastination doesn't even work anymore. I just keep falling farther and farther from the world. With my current meds, I don't feel like offing myself, but I don't feel like doing much of anything else either. In theory, I want things, but I can hardly take the smallest baby steps towards any sort of goal. It's an achievement to simply leave the house. I need a job ASAP for money, and I'm really scared. Any thoughts? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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