jeepdiva81 Posted July 30, 2005 Share Posted July 30, 2005 I started experiencing what I now recognize to be a manic/hypomanic episode this week. Ive done this many times before, but until I started researching mental illness online, it never occured to me that I might me manic. See what you think: Starting on Sunday, I was insanely sarcastic and mean to people. I am usually pretty shy and people-pleasing. I went out drinking on monday night at a bar (I don't drink & I have NEVER been to a bar!) After drinking, my friend and I went to Walmart and tried on shoes for an hour. Then we took pictures in the restroom of our tits w/ her phone and sent them out to all her boys. We ended up walking the store until 3 am! My husband is/was so PISSED OFF at me! I usually apologize, instead I laughed in his face! I went shopping crazy this week too. I spent all the money we had, including the $$ to pay our electric bill. I rationalized it saying i would get paid again today. All is good, electric is still on, but I feel guilty for spending so much money. I took 1/2 the stuff back, the rest of the stuff we can use but we could have lived without, kwIm? Ive been dressing like a total slut all week too. Low cut tops, push up bras and slutty make up. I flirt with anyone who pays attention to me! This is SO not like me!!! I usually wear t-shirts and jeans and no make up! I called an ex-boyfriend I haven't talked to in 6+ years! He was my boyfriend when I was in jr high! He was like "To what do I owe this surprise?" I wanted to say "Oh you know, I'm just going manic" but I made up some lame excuse. He invited me to visit him at the club he dj's at. I NEVER go to clubs!!! But I actually told him I would go!!! WTF!? I don't think I will go, but the fact I even thought about going scares me. What is this going to do to my marriage? My husband thinks I've turned into a complete bitch. He thinks its because I started seeing a psych 1 month ago who put me on zoloft, baclofen, and clonazepam. He says I was more normal before I saw the psych! His solution to make me better?: Get a job. yeah thats just what I need. Something else to screw up! So I relayed all this to the psych today who dx'd me w/ BP II (I'm already dx'd with PTSD, GAD and Panic disorder) and prescribed me Lamictal and Abilify (2.5 mg to start). If I've lived like this my whole life, are all these meds totally necessary? It just seems like I'm going to be a walking freakin pharmacy! Can someone who's been there please tell me if this will help me? The hypomania is not so bad (well except for my husband), but my lows are really low and last a lot longer than the highs. I'm always scared starting new meds. I wonder if I really need them or not. TIA for any advice, or experiences you could give me Stephanie Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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