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Ok, so I am new to chatrooms listserves and forums.....new to my diagnosis too. Since part of it is social anxiety disorder, doc suggested going online for some support. She's brilliant! Anyway, I have been depressed and afraid of people as long as I can remember. I have always felt different, somehow, and flawed, too (that's putting it nicely, I'm feeling up today. on a bad day I'd describe it as worthless.) I always knew there was soemthing 'wrong' but its taken a lot of self-medicating, beating myself up over percieved iniquities, and several therapists and half-hearted attempts with antidepressants to really make an effort to get better.

Official diagnosis seems to keep getting longer. Borderline Personality Disorder with early-onset dysthymia and a smidge of social anxiety disorder thrown into mix. knowing what to call it and there are other people in my boat, or at least floating near it, makes world a better place automatically. I can stop feeling so all alone, a feeling I am all to familiar with. seeing a therapist I can work with on regular basis and now getting on meds I think will do wonders. I actually wouldn't have described myself as depressed really, until she gave me one of those little tests and she said it was one of the highest scores she's ever seen....not a good thing, here.

Going back on meds tomorrow. Pristique. I've not taken that one, but have checked out threads about that and I can say I am glad I did. now I know to expect the worst and hope for the best. I have headache problems anyway and am pretty succeptible to them (read:a big wussy). so, headache as side-effect scares me. I really don't do well with them. barfing doesn't bother me....Almost like the idea of not having an appetite....my repsonse to depression is to eat uncontrollably and I've gained 50 lb. since birth of last child. I've got two, btw....19 mos. and 5 years.

Well, that's me in a nutshell (and yes, I am thinking of Austin Powers as I write that). I am excited that this forum or whatever you call it seems so active. I have been looking for one to join. Now I just need to remember my screen name and password.

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Welcome to Crazyboards. I'm sure you'll find it a fantastic place - I know I do!

No need to be afraid of us. We don't bite. And we're all crazy (to varying degrees) here LOL! ;)

My response to depression is the same as yours, but ever since we found a med that I could tolerate without having carb and sugar cravings and/or feeling nauseous, I've lost weight and been feeling a lot better.

Anyhow, I look forward to getting to know you.

Littlewing

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Firstly, welcome. I'm still relatively new myself, so I'll let someone else do a more formal welcome.

I am excited that this forum or whatever you call it seems so active.

And yes, you'll find that not only is this board very active, all of the people on it are helpful, full of advice and have usually experienced at least a part of what you are feeling yourself.

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Hey NSN2C! I am not new but an old member who pops in now and again..This place rocks! I remember when I was new to my diagnosis New to my meds..this place not only gave me vital information but support like I just don't get out here in RL..I hope you find your place here. I feel like I was literally pulled out of a very deep dark pit partly because of this place. I hope you find it to be as wonderful as I do!

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Welcome to Crazyboards. I have found the people here great, and learn more than I ever expected to. You're sure to love it!

As for Pristiq, I have been on it for five months and am doing fine. I think that as you read the the Pristiq threads, you will find as many success stories as you will those that tell of it not working for people. I have had some of the initial SEs, but they have long passed, and this is the only SSRI or SNRI that I haven't had major problems with. Hope it works for you, and don't focus too much on those negative SEs so much until you've given it a fair try. Never been on an AD yet that was just "a breeze". Some were horrible, some were horrendous, some worked fine but made me manic, but Pristiq(with some patience) seems to have hit the sweet spot.

Deepster

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Hi notsonew2crazy!

Welcome to CB!

This is a wonderful place to be social without the pressure of real life. And a real haven - most wacky shit a brain can do, there's someone around here that can relate. We're all Mentally Ill (M.I.), so no one's alone. I hope you find that this a good place for you, it's been awesome for me ;)

Good luck on the Pristiq!

~ Mayteana

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As for Pristiq, I have been on it for five months and am doing fine. I think that as you read the the Pristiq threads, you will find as many success stories as you will those that tell of it not working for people. I have had some of the initial SEs, but they have long passed, and this is the only SSRI or SNRI that I haven't had major problems with. Hope it works for you, and don't focus too much on those negative SEs so much until you've given it a fair try. Never been on an AD yet that was just "a breeze". Some were horrible, some were horrendous, some worked fine but made me manic, but Pristiq(with some patience) seems to have hit the sweet spot.

....so I went to pick up meds last night, was giving myself a pep talk on way in and thinking here we go down a new path on life's journey, and then I pulled up to pharmacy window and they said my particular prescription wouldn't cover this drug. I have a high-deductible with HSA, so I guess theyfigure giving me this drug will run me up to my limit quicker and they'll have to pay more money. so, back to drawing board. I read that Zoloft can help with social anxiety and phobias...but am waitingto hear back from doc re: what scrip I will get.

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....so I went to pick up meds last night, was giving myself a pep talk on way in and thinking here we go down a new path on life's journey, and then I pulled up to pharmacy window and they said my particular prescription wouldn't cover this drug. I have a high-deductible with HSA, so I guess theyfigure giving me this drug will run me up to my limit quicker and they'll have to pay more money. so, back to drawing board. I read that Zoloft can help with social anxiety and phobias...but am waitingto hear back from doc re: what scrip I will get.

You know, I always find it unbelievable when people say that their insurance won't pay for necessary medications. It's just ridiculous. I always thank my lucky stars that here in the UK we have the NHS. Without it, so many of us would just be walking around with no control over our lives. They are literally a life-saver, despite the fact that everything seems to take an age to get done!

I really hope you can get this sorted. It's not as if it's something you can buy over the counter and obviously your doc wouldn't have prescribed it for you if you didn't need it.

What a nightmare!

LW

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:) also thank you all for warm welcomes. very comforting. having a really hard day today so looking back over nice words is helping. did I mention hubby is recovering AA (9 years sober) and bipolar...only started meds for it about a year ago and won't go see therapist...thinks AA, which he's very active in, is enough.....needless to say we have a very intersting house. interesting this morning meant a scrape before I headed off to work and me obsessing over said scrape all day. I took half my morning to write him this epic email...now I am checking FB, email, text messages for any clue that he's read the email. no repsonse. ;) I know this isn't productive and is unfair to employer, whose time I am eating up... but I have been on verge of breakdown all day.
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