notsonew2crazy Posted April 22, 2009 Share Posted April 22, 2009 Ok, so I am new to chatrooms listserves and forums.....new to my diagnosis too. Since part of it is social anxiety disorder, doc suggested going online for some support. She's brilliant! Anyway, I have been depressed and afraid of people as long as I can remember. I have always felt different, somehow, and flawed, too (that's putting it nicely, I'm feeling up today. on a bad day I'd describe it as worthless.) I always knew there was soemthing 'wrong' but its taken a lot of self-medicating, beating myself up over percieved iniquities, and several therapists and half-hearted attempts with antidepressants to really make an effort to get better. Official diagnosis seems to keep getting longer. Borderline Personality Disorder with early-onset dysthymia and a smidge of social anxiety disorder thrown into mix. knowing what to call it and there are other people in my boat, or at least floating near it, makes world a better place automatically. I can stop feeling so all alone, a feeling I am all to familiar with. seeing a therapist I can work with on regular basis and now getting on meds I think will do wonders. I actually wouldn't have described myself as depressed really, until she gave me one of those little tests and she said it was one of the highest scores she's ever seen....not a good thing, here. Going back on meds tomorrow. Pristique. I've not taken that one, but have checked out threads about that and I can say I am glad I did. now I know to expect the worst and hope for the best. I have headache problems anyway and am pretty succeptible to them (read:a big wussy). so, headache as side-effect scares me. I really don't do well with them. barfing doesn't bother me....Almost like the idea of not having an appetite....my repsonse to depression is to eat uncontrollably and I've gained 50 lb. since birth of last child. I've got two, btw....19 mos. and 5 years. Well, that's me in a nutshell (and yes, I am thinking of Austin Powers as I write that). I am excited that this forum or whatever you call it seems so active. I have been looking for one to join. Now I just need to remember my screen name and password. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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