People do suck, but when it is your family it really sucks

[Registered Nut]

I am way old enough to do so, move across the country, but would I be be doing doing myself the disservice? I would not be able to see my grandchildren very often, plus I don't want to make my sons feel like I don't care for them. I guess my main issue is with my DD, (dear dad) and my sister. If I can just get moved out of my dad's, I don't have to have anything to do with him or my sister.

Those two think alike and the situation with my DD and DS is hopeless...believe me. It is a long and ugly story.

I really have the problem between now and when I can get a job and get out back on my own. I hate the way they instantly jump on any little thing I do, I hear them talking crap about me all the time, even in this house, the minute I walk out the room. I had a shouting match with my DD today and of course he calls it my "mental illness". My borderline personality is mostly cured and I do have depression.

The slap in the face is that I have worked HARD for 3 years to get better and my family compares me to the problems my son has as an alcoholic that is not trying to get better physically and is not going to rehab. He almost just died in the hospital due to alcoholic pancreatitis, just 3 weeks ago.

I am just feeling super frustrated and hatred towards my own family and it is pretty sickening to me that I cannot have a decent family or supportive one that is. They have never supported me through this whole ordeal.