daisy Posted May 4, 2009 Share Posted May 4, 2009 I had read on here that people can sometimes feel differences when they first start at even the smallest doses, but I honestly didn't think it was all that true. (Sorry, guys!) Even my best friend told me that she noticed a huge difference in just the first week on 25 mg, and I kind of laughed it off. (She's on 50 now, and she says it got even better at 50, but I told her she was probably just imagining things.) But I'm on day 5 and... WHOA. I can see what those people were saying. I am on Day 5, and for the past two days, I've woke up feeling like myself in a VERY long time. It's like I'm back in my own brain again. I haven't dreaded facing the day. I mean, I'm still depressed, but there is a massive difference in mood. I can't even think about how I'll feel in a month when I'm on 100 mg, which is supposed to be the dosage that is used for most anti-depressant qualities. (Though I'm on the pill, so it may have to be higher. However, if I'm feeling something at 25 mg when I'm on the pill, maybe not.) I can honestly not remember a time when I felt like I have the last few days. I'm not dysfunctionally depressed. I'm not hypomanic. I'm just me. And I've had those days before -- they're just so few and far between that I sometimes forget what it feels like to be like this. Feeling like me is the best feeling imaginable. Although I still wish I was me AND not depressed... but if this medication keeps working like it is, that might actually be a possibility. This is the first time I've ever had hope that I might be able to live a completely normal life... this is the first time I've ever been REALLY affected by a treatment. (Wellbutrin DID help me some, but it didn't take me all the way there.) Plus, no side effects yet, knock on wood! I'm just having to be super strict about my hardcore acne skin care regimen so it doesn't come back, but I wouldn't know at 5 days whether or not I'll be having a problem with that yet. I'm sure it's just a placebo effect, but I welcome any effect that comes my way, placebo or not. And I certainly have not ever had a placebo effect like THIS before. So I hope this placebo effect (or hopefully REAL effect) keeps on working like this, because if it gets better than this then I think I might actually *gasp* become normal. (Whatever that is.) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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