grannyp Posted July 9, 2009 Share Posted July 9, 2009 I am a mother, wife and grandmother and recently made some very stupid decisions of which i was scammed out of thousands of dollars. My delimma, i am very ashamed of my self. I took 28 .5 mg of ativan and about 30 tylenol pms. why am i posting this, so no one else will do the same thing i did. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tryp Posted July 9, 2009 Share Posted July 9, 2009 Hey there, I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. Did you get medical help? If not, you might want to consider calling 911 or going to the ER. It's hard for me to say more, because I don't know much about your situation, but I hope you'll keep posting. We're all here to listen, and sometimes it can be really nice to have somewhere to come and vent. Tryp Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
grannyp Posted July 9, 2009 Author Share Posted July 9, 2009 You're right, it started when i wanted to take my family to disney world. i applied for a loan w/beston fg, that was a scam and they took 800.00 from me. well as time went i tried another on line loan westernside loans. they took 629.00 from me. i pride myself on feeding a sunday supper every week and stay up lifted but i have been very depressed. all i wanted was to get my fee i sent in back. i cannot face anyone anymore, i am hoping going to bed taking all the meds i listed previously will prevent me from waking up. quote name='tryp' date='Jul 9 2009, 12:47 PM' post='351166'] Hey there, I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. Did you get medical help? If not, you might want to consider calling 911 or going to the ER. It's hard for me to say more, because I don't know much about your situation, but I hope you'll keep posting. We're all here to listen, and sometimes it can be really nice to have somewhere to come and vent. Tryp Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tryp Posted July 9, 2009 Share Posted July 9, 2009 Hey grannyp, I'm sorry that you had to go through that. You don't deserve to be cheated - that's really horrible. Being depressed can feel terrible. I've been there, myself. I have been very close to killing myself on several occasions. That said, I have decided to live. Things CAN get better. With medication, with therapy, even just with time. You don't have to feel this way forever. Have you ever read this? It has often helped me when I have been suicidal. Keep talking to us. I know it can feel like life just isn't worth it - I've been there - but there are ways out other than taking all your pills. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LunaRufina Posted July 9, 2009 Share Posted July 9, 2009 You can continue to educate people on what not to do after you take care of yourself. Call 911, please. If 911 is not an option in your area call a friend or relative to take you to emergency. Get some help. NOW. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
r.mcmurphy Posted July 9, 2009 Share Posted July 9, 2009 when all one can feel is crushing despair with no end to it, the solution that you took grannyp, is a an end that hurts all and settles nothing. presumably if you are given medical treatment your stomach's contents will be removed and fluids adminisitered. the dose that you have taken will, almost certainly have you sleeping quite long and indeed fuzzyheaded when you awake. the financial horror that you have experienced will still be there and after you are back on your feet, you can fight to make yourself whole again. you are in need of a brilliant Pdoc and your husband needs to be involved, along with you in counseling with the best in that field. we all wish that you climb out of this pit that you have fallen into and back into the families that you wanted to flee. come back and tell us how good a start came from this awful event. suicide is always on my mind but i am getting more comfortable living with that. i won't have much of a life as it is not really practical to expect having friends when my life is colored by waiting for it to end. please read the forums here. there are people who went from despair and through medicine and docs, have had good lives. getting a leg up emotionally, with help from competent medical people is something real. you must be your own advocate if no other is to found. you can join the ranks that have been pulled back and taken care of. please come back Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
grannyp Posted July 9, 2009 Author Share Posted July 9, 2009 I don't know, i jsut wanted to pay off debt and ended loosing money, at this moment all i want to do is go away and let my family get the insurance to make things better. hell i'm even wondering how i am going to get groceries. Hey grannyp, I'm sorry that you had to go through that. You don't deserve to be cheated - that's really horrible. Being depressed can feel terrible. I've been there, myself. I have been very close to killing myself on several occasions. That said, I have decided to live. Things CAN get better. With medication, with therapy, even just with time. You don't have to feel this way forever. Have you ever read [link=http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/" target="_blank]this[/link]? It has often helped me when I have been suicidal. Keep talking to us. I know it can feel like life just isn't worth it - I've been there - but there are ways out other than taking all your pills. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tryp Posted July 9, 2009 Share Posted July 9, 2009 at this moment all i want to do is go away and let my family get the insurance to make things better. Lots of us have been there. Your family would NOT be better off if you were gone. Suicide causes so much grief to everyone around. PLEASE go get yourself some help. Things can get better, but right now you need some help staying safe. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
grannyp Posted July 9, 2009 Author Share Posted July 9, 2009 Thank you but, i think my decison is the right one. appreciate the help at this moment all i want to do is go away and let my family get the insurance to make things better. Lots of us have been there. Your family would NOT be better off if you were gone. Suicide causes so much grief to everyone around. PLEASE go get yourself some help. Things can get better, but right now you need some help staying safe. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Inspired_Neurosis Posted July 9, 2009 Share Posted July 9, 2009 Your family would rather have you alive. And, if this makes a difference(even though it really isn't the point), hardly any insurance policies cover suicides. CALL 9-11. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
grannyp Posted July 9, 2009 Author Share Posted July 9, 2009 this is right but there are items to take to cover drugs in your system, i really thing i have made the right decision. it hurts and yes i am crying as i will miss my grandchildren so much but it is the right thing to do Your family would rather have you alive. And, if this makes a difference(even though it really isn't the point), hardly any insurance policies cover suicides. CALL 9-11. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Inspired_Neurosis Posted July 9, 2009 Share Posted July 9, 2009 Again, your grandchildren would rather have the ability to spend more time with you than to have money. What would you tell a family member who was in your situation? Please call 9-11. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tryp Posted July 9, 2009 Share Posted July 9, 2009 It is NOT the right thing to do. The right thing to do is live and try to get some help. You can always kill yourself later, if things don't get better. But can't you give yourself a few weeks to go to the ER, and try to get some help. Your grandchildren will miss you. Losing you will be such a huge blow to them. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Artemisia Posted July 9, 2009 Share Posted July 9, 2009 I just hope your attempt fails... for the sake of your family--and yours as well. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
grannyp Posted July 9, 2009 Author Share Posted July 9, 2009 I appreciate everyone's help i really do, but i can't even get groceries for my family. i have never been so ashamed of myself as i am now I just hope your attempt fails... for the sake of your family--and yours as well. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
beetle Posted July 9, 2009 Share Posted July 9, 2009 I don't know, i jsut wanted to pay off debt and ended loosing money, at this moment all i want to do is go away and let my family get the insurance to make things better. hell i'm even wondering how i am going to get groceries. From what I understand, if you kill yourself then your insurance policy won't pay out anyway. So call and get some help now. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tryp Posted July 9, 2009 Share Posted July 9, 2009 I get being ashamed. I basically dropped out of school this semester - I have never been so ashamed in my life. But your family NEEDS you. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I KNOW it doesn't feel temporary, but things CAN get better. Your family deserves to have their mother/grandmother around. Your grandchildren deserve to have grandmother to watch them grow up. If you try to get help and things don't get better, you can always kill yourself later. But give yourself some time first. Go to the ER, see a doctor, give getting help a try. You deserve help. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
olga Posted July 9, 2009 Share Posted July 9, 2009 If your attempt fails, you could end up being a vegetable in a hospital for 30 years. If you have no money for groceries, there are food banks that will help you. This is not the end of the world, to lose some money. Plus, you should stay alive so you can report those scammers to the Attorney General in your state. Please, you could help potentially thousands of people from making the same mistake. I lost someone to suicide. It was 39 years ago, and I still mourn. Please, please, please don't do that to your family. You are planning a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Money is nothing. You can get through this---I bet you've been through things that were much harder. Please call 911 or a friend. The people here really do care about you. olga Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Artemisia Posted July 9, 2009 Share Posted July 9, 2009 I appreciate everyone's help i really do, but i can't even get groceries for my family. i have never been so ashamed of myself as i am now I just hope your attempt fails... for the sake of your family--and yours as well. I just realized how condescending what I wrote was. Like I know exactly what's best for you. Sorry. I understand that you've done something "silly" that's likely going to have annoying consequences. But you can still have a life in spite of that. Really. I understand that maybe it's hard to see that right now, but you just have to survive the right now. (And that will require calling 911.) Things will get better... and worse... and better again. It's just what life does. You have family members and possibly friends who'd feel heartbroken--and probably guilty--to find out that you killed yourself over this. And this really isn't worth your life. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
grannyp Posted July 9, 2009 Author Share Posted July 9, 2009 honestly i don't think they need me near as much as they need my husband. and i have already contacted the authorities over the scams. I get being ashamed. I basically dropped out of school this semester - I have never been so ashamed in my life. But your family NEEDS you. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I KNOW it doesn't feel temporary, but things CAN get better. Your family deserves to have their mother/grandmother around. Your grandchildren deserve to have grandmother to watch them grow up. If you try to get help and things don't get better, you can always kill yourself later. But give yourself some time first. Go to the ER, see a doctor, give getting help a try. You deserve help. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Artemisia Posted July 9, 2009 Share Posted July 9, 2009 honestly i don't think they need me near as much as they need my husband. OK, maybe on a most basic level, they do need him more. But it won't feel like that if you're gone. And he may not be able to be of any "use" to them if he's unable to deal with his own grief over losing you. And there'll be lots of grief to go around... Please, call the ambulance. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
grannyp Posted July 9, 2009 Author Share Posted July 9, 2009 they love mom and mammaw because she always has food in the house and cooks every sunday and always has a surprise, cookie, cake or something. i cannot do that this week. honestly i don't think they need me near as much as they need my husband. OK, maybe on a most basic level, they do need him more. But it won't feel like that if you're gone. And he may not be able to be of any "use" to them if he's unable to deal with his own grief over losing you. And there'll be lots of grief to go around... Please, call the ambulance. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tryp Posted July 9, 2009 Share Posted July 9, 2009 they love mom and mammaw because she always has food in the house and cooks every sunday and always has a surprise, cookie, cake or something. i cannot do that this week. I'm sure they love you for more than that. And even if you feel like you don't have much to offer them now, one day, you will be able to offer more again. I've stayed away from my family for months while not feeling good, and then when I feel better, I have more time to spend and empathy to give. Your family DOES need you. Things CAN get better. Please get help. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Artemisia Posted July 9, 2009 Share Posted July 9, 2009 The very fact that you posted here about your plans suggests to me that a part of you wants help. (You say that you only posted here as a warning, but I think there's more to that.) Listen to that part of you! It's a very smart part. Permanent solution to temporary problems can be really devastating. This isn't worth your life. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Inspired_Neurosis Posted July 9, 2009 Share Posted July 9, 2009 Artemisia is right about this post being a cry for help, and we're listening. Your kids and grandkids love you, as you've stated. Since you're obviously trying to act in what you consider their best interests, think about how they'd feel to lose you to suicide. I don't like the guilt approach to preventing suicide, but I bring this up because you are trying to do what's best for them. That would be staying alive. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gizmo Posted July 10, 2009 Share Posted July 10, 2009 Did you use a bank account to send them this money? Almost every bank account will allow you to dispute the transaction and recover your money, whether you used a check, and check over the phone, or a debit card. Most of the paprework is very simple and requires nothing more than a signature. Most banks process these claims very fast, and allow you to get your money back in a few days. Remember, with bank claims, the burden of proof is on the company, not on you. Important: filing a claim with the bank is *different* than filing a claim with the police. Did you pay them with a money order or money gram/western union? Call the company up and file a fraud claim. They all have fraud departments to help you as well. Did you mail a payment? That's mail fraud, and you should get in touch with the postmaster general of your town to file a claim. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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