MarkP Posted July 13, 2009 Share Posted July 13, 2009 Okay, here's my problem: I can't make myself go to bed 'on-time', nor can I make myself get up 'on-time' afterwards, and its constantly a self-reinforcing cycle that, despite my best efforts, have been unable to beat. And when I do sleep, it is unrefreshing at best, and I am pretty much fatigued all the time. Other symptoms include strong sensitivity to light almost always, significant problems with short-term memory recall (but excellent long-term memory), impulsiveness, feelings of deja vu, innattentiveness, poor focus, no energy to engage in meaningful exercise, always quite hungry-feeling, etc. I've gone to doctors, and have been offered anti-depressants (useless, usually just made the sleeping problems worse, and took away my ability to think straight), benzos (insane doses, ie: 10mg Ativan required to knock me out, although temazepam did work a little bit better), and anti-psychotics (made me dumb). I've been also tested for thyroid dysfunction and diabetes, and those have been conclusively ruled out. I do find that I sleep better when I'm 'coming down' from mild stimulants such as caffeine, in Coca Cola. I told the psychiatrist this, and told the psychiatrist that the only things I haven't tried as of yet were stimulants and opiates. The psychiatrist pretty much brushed me off, gave me a lecture on the evils of benzos (which I haven't taken for months due to lack of efficacy, and due to the fact that doctors won't write for 10mg/day l'zepam or 120-150mg temazepam), implored me not to see him again unless I was suffering true 'mental illness' (as in, voices, hallucinations, or being suicidal) and sent me packing. I could ask a few friends for the name of a local 'quack' doctor that caters to the druggies and junkies around here -- but is there a way to get a Ritalin prescription from a 'respectable' doctor using the logic that being 'high' on Ritalin during the day will facilitate a crash at night that will put a person to sleep? Psychiatrists and sleep specialists are almost non-existent here (1 psychiatrist per 50k population!), and the GP's mostly do not prescribe psychiatric medicine of any kind, believing it is not their 'place'. Please, someone give me ideas. I don't want to end up like Michael Jackson, on some messed up cocktail of uppers and downers.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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