Hiya

[crankycabbage]

I've been lurking on these boards for awhile now. So I guess the bare facts would be that I am 29 years old, I used to be on Paxil for Social Anxiety but recently was taken off that and diagnosed as Bipolar II, or maybe Bipolar I, My doc is I think on the fence. I tried being medication free for awhile but my life lately has been very tumultuous and solitary, meaning I got nuts right quick. Now I am on 1200mg lithium and 2mgs Klonopin. I'm not sure how well they are working. Just this week due to a lot of social engagements I've been oscillating between outright panic and then shame and depression. I am typing this at home tonight because I just could not bear to leave the house and join friends for an art opening that I was meant to participate in but could not because of my shifting moods. I really feel like my problems are wrecking my life, it's illogical to be afraid of situations you KNOW you will enjoy, but there it is.

This is the whiniest introduction ever! Sorry and Hello? Sometimes I am fun!

[LunaRufina]

Hi right back!

I didn't think that was whiney at all. It IS illogical to be afraid of situations where you think you will have fun, but it doesn't make it any easier, does it?

I think you'll be in good company here as a member and find some neat people to converse with. I myself am BP and definitely experience some anxiety so I know what you're talking about.

If you are up for it, we have a chat room, I'm not sure if you've noticed it before, but there are nice people in there if you want to stop in sometime. The traffic is up and down, so it's kind of hard to say when the "busy" times are.

Also, I do encourage you to start a blog, which I'm sure you've seen. It's a good way to get to know people and have them get to know you.

Check out the rules in New User Info if you haven't yet when you get a chance, they're pretty straight forward.

And if you have any questions at all feel free to ask one of the mods or admins.

Glad you decided to come out of the shadows.

Luna

[Choosing_the_blue_pills]

Welcome to CB! You don't have to feel any pressure to be fun or hide your problems here. That said there are a couple of threads with fun stuff. But mostly we are here to talk about our problems, and venting is a part of that. Sadly there is not any whining around here, and not in your post either, because diagnosed MI problems are not trivial. Some people have more severe problems than others, but no MI is a trivial problem no matter how much people like to think there own problems are insignificant sometimes. Hope you will like it here and continue to post.

[MistyGypsy]

Greetings & welcome crankycabbage! Love the name

[olga]

I'm SO glad someone else is cranky!! Welcome to our humble place and feel free to whine all you want! Or vent. Whatever.

This is home for the nutz. heh

olga

[crankycabbage]

I think the apology was kneejerk, I've had this massive personality shift and now it's my standard greeting. I used to be relatively carefree, manic is a fun way (let's all buy chickens and build forts) and I have noticed the shock in the face of people I've re-met with recently. It's embarrassing but I am certain the awkwardness might be on my part, I don't think people require you to only ever be one person. But still having to admit that invisible illnesses are guiding your life, well it's just rough I guess.

Thanks for the warm greeting! I am happy to be in good company!

[~nestling~]

Welcome!