Ms. Nico Posted July 26, 2009 Share Posted July 26, 2009 Hello, this is my first post here. Please excuse my poor english and lousy grammar, as it's not my native tongue. During the last months and weeks, I've experienced some truly weird stuff. I was just wondering if someone an this board has made similar experiences, as I'm starting to get quite worried. I'm female, 26 years old, and I've suffered from mild insomnia and mood swings for years. Sometimes I fell overly emotional and sad, and other times I seem to feel nothing at all. That has never worried me too much as I've always had it under control. So I simply accepted it as a part of my personality. But lately I've started to experience some really strange things. During the last month, there were two rather extreme situations. In both cases, I've met with friends and we drank alcohol. I'm not someone who drinks a lot though, usually onla a beer or two on the weekends when I'm meeting with friends. Since then, I haven't touched alcohol again. The meetings themselves were rather unspectacular. But in the days and weeks after them, I've started to remember things from these evenings that never happened. I only found out about that when I apologized to someone for something that never happened and asked another friend about a long conversation we had which apparently never took place. I don't remember just isolated scenes either. At first, it was as if I remembered the "normal" evening and another evening in my mind. I wasn't able to tell which one was real and which was not, so I just assumed that all of the things have really happened. When I noticed that most of my memories seemed to be false, I assumed that I've experienced a really weird dream. That might very well be, but if that's the case I seem to have difficulties telling my dreams from reality. I'm not so sure that it's just been a dream now though, as my false memories have begun to change. Whenever some told me: "That wasn't real, that never happened", I've immediately developed other "memories", completely with dialogue, background noise and all the little details which make a scene seem real. And they always seem real to me. In my mind, I now have several complete memories of the same evening which all seem authentic to me. I wouldn't be able to tell the difference between imagination and reality if I hadn't asked my friends. And even right now, I'm not entirely sure what was real and what was not, as my "false" memories feel somehow more real than the "authentic" ones. This is so confusing. I've stopped asking people questions about the incidents, as I'm worried that even my current memories have never happened. I can't stop thinking about them, though, it's as if I somehow force myself not to think of anything else. This is so strange. Additionaly, my sleep problems have become worse during the last weeks, this occured after I developed the false memories. I don't believe I've slept at all between monday and thursday, even though I've been dead tired. Right now it's a bit better again, but only because I've taken something that helped me sleep. I can't seem to concentrate on my work either, somehow I'm always distracted by the smallest things. And I've developed a lack of appetite during the last weeks. I can't eat properly, because I feel sick whenever I try to eat something or even just open my fridge. I've already lost quite a bit of weight because of this. I'm quite concerned about all the things that have been happening lately. Has anyone here made similar experiences? Is this just related to the insomnia or could this be indicative of a different problem? I'm pretty confused right now. Thanks, Ms. Nico Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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