charlie_not_chuck Posted September 21, 2009 Share Posted September 21, 2009 And if there is a way, then lemme know! I transitioned to male since my last activity on here, so my old screen name wasn't appropriate. And I need to just talk the stuff in my head out. I was watching TV with my dad when he was in the hospital and they had a thing where to help unclutter your mind, you just write everything down on sticky notes and post it on a board on the wall. I'm going to try that. Then I don't have to worry about forgetting things, either. It'll be kind of lame carrying around a sticky pad, too, but whatever. I think I might need meds again. I think I might need therapy again. I'm finally admitting this to myself after a long time wanting to stay off that stuff. I wanted to prove to myself that I could be "normal" because I really want to enlist in the Army. Apparently they only let folks with untreated mental illness in. Anyway. I'm not wanting to get angsty. I'm on a mission to make myself healthier. Weigh less. I've dropped 60 lbs in the last year, going for 100 in two years. Eventually 9% body fat or less. Then surgeries. Then I'll be happy. And if I'm not, the thought that consoles me is that I'll be able to kill myself after my parents pass away. I don't like that it makes me feel better, but I certainly couldn't do it now. But having that option in the future makes it nice. It makes me feel calmer. Much calmer. So... hello. I'm Charlie. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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