blackbird Posted October 21, 2009 Share Posted October 21, 2009 Over the past week I have suffered new depths of paranoia and psychosis which have made me want to take my own life. I went ot my GP and asked him if he would try me on a Typical Antipsychotic called Clopixol at 2mgs. The reason I wanted to try this one is because it is sedating. I am prescribed a lot of benzos, but I use them very sparingly as I do not want to end up with a benzo habit and I know that benzos dont cure psychosis, they can only calm me a little. I have found clopixol to be helpful at this small dose. Haldol does not seem to be working anymore. Zyprexa makes me functional. If I didnt take it I would be in a padded cell but it doesnt tackle my core symptoms. I was going to discuss with my CPN and p-doc the possibility of going onto Clopixol depot (Zuclopenthixol Decanoate) at a low dose to replace the Haldol as I feel that my brain needs to be heavily sedated. Plus this would take away the factor of my mother fucking around with my tablets. You would not believe the vile ugly content of the voices and the thoughts that come into my head. I feel that they must be put there by the devil. My brain feels like it is running at 500mph when it should be doing 60mph. Clopixol is sedating antipsychotic. Already I feel calmed down. I have read all the risks of clopixol and I am willing to have my creativity stifled. Academic achievement is hollow if you are as crazy as a box of frogs. Should I pester my p-doc for this depot? I doubt he'll be keen blackbird x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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