wdawg05 Posted November 10, 2009 Share Posted November 10, 2009 OK I"m currently on ativan, temezapam, lithium, buspar, antabuse, and daytrana (ritalin patch)...... basically all these drugs are what it took to make me stop drinking and feel OK about it.....but I still buy and abuse pain pills whenever they are around and I know the easiest and best answer to my issue is to go back on adderall..... which I have been extremely addicted to in the past but haven't taken for 2 or 3 years. But first of all it terrifies me that I'm taking meds that can have really serious physical withdrawals and they constantly need to be upped in dosage and it just makes me feel like taking 60 mg of adderall a day and being on a sleep med is much better than being on all that shit..... and im actually on my 2nd day off of the lithium because my doctor diagnosed me with bipolar because he was running out of things to tell me as to why the meds he was prescribing wouldnt work so i was already skeptical and ive never had a manic episode in my life, which im told is a period of increased energy and mood..... and ive never been in a non drug induced good mood ever.... but anyways his office continues to think its ok to not tell people the refilll policies on medication, for the past 5 months ive called CVS they fax an authorization to my doctors office and the prescription is waiting for me within that day..... now Leticia at the front desk tells me it takes 48 hours to get a refill on medications and its appaling that with a medication as serious as lithium that they just kinda play with people's minds like that....luckily im feeling no effect from it....but also I gotta tell you all that even on my current meds and pain pill situation i have issues with getting up in the morning and going to work..... sometimes because im to depressed, sometimes because i have involuntary twitching/fainting spells for about the first 30 min after i get up so im very socially anxious that ill have a spell in front of ppl.....so the anti anxiety meds aren't helping a great deal, and I know that if I had a stimulant I can get right up and go to work and be productive and fine.....granted I will develop a tolerance and years down the road will probably have to stop taking it and it will be uncomfortable, the pros seem to be dominating the cons...... I also tend to not abuse any drugs when I"m on stimulants...... I'm realisitic though I know I'm easily addicted to adderall but what about vyvanse, or provigiil? I mean I have a support system that will keep my prescription so I don't take more than I'm supposed to but just wondering about any of the other stimulants out there? sorry for the rant but I refuse to continue to put my sanity in the hands of people who are prescribing me meds that can cause serious withdrawal issues and then not being concerned when I have to go 33 days with a 30 day supply, and I don't wanna continue on this benzo trip (upping dosages over time etc;) if I can't be guaranteed good care because I start freaking out when I can't get my meds filled on the day they are supposed to be filled. so what do yal think? Am i just crazy? I just think the side effects and possible complications from taking adderall or another stimulant (the patch im on delivers 2 mg per hour so it does nothing ) are far less dangerous than benzos...... thoughts? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CrazyBabs Posted November 10, 2009 Share Posted November 10, 2009 What about going in for your refills two or three days BEFORE your meds run out? ANother big boy suggestion would be to ask your doctor to ween you off of all of you meds over a period of time and stop buying the pain meds - or go to detox. Try living drug free. I know easier said then done - but I have done it. I've been clean for 8 years - the first 6 months sucked and then I got my life together. Good moods don't necessarily equate to a feeling of being high. LIfe on life's terms doesn't always feel good but that's life. Go see a therapist. It doesn't sound like fromwhat you have written that you have anything but alcoholism. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Velvet Elvis Posted November 10, 2009 Share Posted November 10, 2009 You're posting to an ADD audience. It would help if you could break up that wall of text and add some paragraph breaks. It's unreadable as is. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AirMarshall Posted November 11, 2009 Share Posted November 11, 2009 I made it half way. sorry. a.m. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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