Aanga Posted December 2, 2009 Share Posted December 2, 2009 I never really know how to do these intro things. And I'm not particularly good with opening up to people, so I suppose the internet is really the easiest alternative for me. I'm glad I found this forum and I hope that I can find people that understand how my head works so I can learn how it works myself. I really want to learn from people who've been through or have something similar to what I have so that I can learn how to deal with this better. So, uh, I guess a bit about me. I'm a 23 year old university female. I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, ADHD, and PTSD. I've had therapists say that I have an adjustment disorder and that I "depersonalize" when I start to talk about my past or just start to feel crappy... I suppose that's what it wrong with my head. Enough doctors have all said the same thing. The bipolar/ADHD thing has been something that my doctors have said I've had since I was like 6 or 7. My parents are extremely anti-psychiatry and anti-medications and have always refused to admit that there's something wrong with my brain. So I went unmedicated and untreated for years. I tried to kill myself when I was 7, but was never hospitalized. My parents said I was just looking for attention. They're not bad people, I know I've not been the best daughter. In high school I thought a lot about suicide. In university everything just got worse. I started to get really, really, really happy, and I thought it meant I was over that "teen angst", but I later realized how badly I'd hurt people while I was happy. I've been in and out of therapy for years now, and I've finally found a therapist that I am comfortable with, but I can only see him twice a month, and I find it really hard to talk to him. This is the first year that I've agreed to be on meds. I didn't like how they made me feel so I quit like...4 or so months ago. My mood has become so unstable since then that my therapist said I really need to go back on my meds or checking into a hospital if I get any worse. So...uh...yea I guess that's an intro and sort of where I'm at. I don't entirely know what to expect from this forum, but I'm hoping to gain a bit of an education of who I am. And maybe find comfort or something, I don't know. I'd just like to understand what's wrong with my head, and try to figure out how to feel somewhat normal...and I want to know where these stupid disorders end and my actual personality begins. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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