gwensragingbileduct Posted August 25, 2005 Share Posted August 25, 2005 My poor boyfriend puts up with so much. I'm bipolar but trying to give up the meds and go solo. Last night I had the mother and father of all panic attacks, and have spent most of the day today crying like a baby. I'm in the middle of Effexor withdrawal, and it's not going away anytime soon. I find it hard to talk to him about how I'm feeling, because I know it would be hurtful to him to hear that I feel so completely alone. I'm lonely even when I'm with him. And I freak and cry. All night. I call my sister because she's the same as me. My boyfriend is very together and logical and reasonable and really has no clue what I'm feeling (and 99% of me is happy about this and hopes that he NEVER does, 'cos I care about him so much), but I know he feels hurt when I call her even though he's in the bed with me. I do have doubts about the relationship...don't think he can handle the insanity, and I need more affection than I think he can give. He's not a talker either and is non responsive when I tell him how far away he seems to me. What the hell do I do? How much is he going to take? How much should he? Should I just stay away from humanity? Should I just set him free and be done with it? Should I set myself on fire? Does the crazyness ever stop? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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