withdelight Posted July 1, 2010 Share Posted July 1, 2010 hey there. my name is maya, i'm 22 and (semi-) recently diagnosed bipolar type II. by which i mean first i struggled through diagnoses of MDD, dysthymia, GAD, SAD, Mood Disorder NOS, and Bipolar NOS (not at the same time, obviously) throughout most of my teen years, taking handfuls of meds that didn't work. i was recently hospitalized twice in a period of like 2 months for self-injury/suicidal ideation/needing to find a psychiatrist and not wait 8 weeks for an appointment, etc. it's been a ridiculous journey and now i have handfuls of new pills and a brand new shiny psychiatrist who is one of the best people i've ever encountered, and a brand new shiny therapist who is great, and currently doing EMDR, which is really terrifying but also pretty helpful, i think. i guess those are the main points regarding my crazy. i'm having a hard time accepting my diagnosis - well, not accepting, really, as much as just... feeling like i'm a fraud who exaggerates and is overly emotional and somehow tricked the doctor into thinking i'm bipolar? idk, i know that doesn't make sense. whatever. i'm working on it. i recently (almost) graduated from college - i still have one incomplete to make up from being in the hospital - and now i'm trying to figure out my life with all the limitations and restrictions that come from my doctors, etc. (not allowed to live alone, can't leave my hometown because that's where the doctors are, no alcohol, stuff like that). i don't doubt that my doctor is right, it just pretty much sucks sometimes. as i'm sure you all know. anyway. that's that. i look forward to getting to know you all and explore the forum Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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