BIMBO Posted July 2, 2010 Share Posted July 2, 2010 I know someone asked this recently about neurontin. I don't think I've come across anything like it on Epilim. I've been in awful, bed ridden depression for almost a week, self harm & all. Now I'm kinda feeling like a hyper is coming on, or maybe a mixed state, cause I'm still depressed but feeling weird. Have energy, having stupid, self destructive thoughts. I can't call my p-doc for a couple of days yet & don't want to call him everytime I think somethings happening anyway. I feel so confused. Like still guilt ridden stupid depression & energetic & feel like drinking & calling my ex & doing all that stupid stuff I do when I am hyper. I AM SO FUCKING SICK OF THIS! Without MI, I'm a pretty grounded, boring person. Last time I had a really bad hyper, I ended up in some park at close to midnight with guys. Met up with bikies to score ice, one of them had shot a guy in the head a week before. I'm so ashamed of that. But it wasn't me. It's not what I want, it's not something I would do. I think when you have 'episodes' it's like being demonically possessed, something else has control of your body and mind. Please work meds, I don't want to be crazy anymore. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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