sumguy Posted July 27, 2010 Share Posted July 27, 2010 Hi. I'm a depressed creepy 30 year old guy in therapy here to bitch and moan about stuff. Also recovering addict. About 8 months clean now. No real diagnosis I'm aware of. I'm not bi-polar. Not a 12 stepper. I ran across this site on a google search for "What's the fucking point?" I think. Fitting given the nature of the forum. We'll see how this goes. I'm hoping to find some people who may be having success getting it together actually. I'm currently going to a therapist twice a week who practices some updated form of psychoanalysis. It's useful but I think there's probably other things I could be doing to help get myself back on track. I'm not big on anti-depressants. I landed myself in the mental hospital for awhile and took them for a few months, then took myself off them for multiple reasons. Therapist knows about it and we're watching it I guess you could say. He respects my wishes and at this point believes I'm capable of coping without trying to commit suicide or relapsing. But of course that wasn't his decision, it was mine. So far in sobriety at least that stay was a turning point. I've been clean ever since. I think a suicide attempt kinda apexes what all that was about for me. It was always about death. Now after allot of work I think I've made some progress but not enough. I want to pull it together and get on with it. Go mix it up with all the other gut-bags in the meaningless absurd void of reality and make my own monkey piss mark on the world before I die. This misery thing is getting pretty old and boring. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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