sumguy Posted July 27, 2010 Share Posted July 27, 2010 Hi. I'm a depressed creepy 30 year old guy in therapy here to bitch and moan about stuff. Also recovering addict. About 8 months clean now. No real diagnosis I'm aware of. I'm not bi-polar. Not a 12 stepper. I ran across this site on a google search for "What's the fucking point?" I think. Fitting given the nature of the forum. We'll see how this goes. I'm hoping to find some people who may be having success getting it together actually. I'm currently going to a therapist twice a week who practices some updated form of psychoanalysis. It's useful but I think there's probably other things I could be doing to help get myself back on track. I'm not big on anti-depressants. I landed myself in the mental hospital for awhile and took them for a few months, then took myself off them for multiple reasons. Therapist knows about it and we're watching it I guess you could say. He respects my wishes and at this point believes I'm capable of coping without trying to commit suicide or relapsing. But of course that wasn't his decision, it was mine. So far in sobriety at least that stay was a turning point. I've been clean ever since. I think a suicide attempt kinda apexes what all that was about for me. It was always about death. Now after allot of work I think I've made some progress but not enough. I want to pull it together and get on with it. Go mix it up with all the other gut-bags in the meaningless absurd void of reality and make my own monkey piss mark on the world before I die. This misery thing is getting pretty old and boring. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tryp Posted July 27, 2010 Share Posted July 27, 2010 Welcome Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
The Emperor Posted July 27, 2010 Share Posted July 27, 2010 Welcome to CB! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jarn Posted July 27, 2010 Share Posted July 27, 2010 Welcome Sumguy! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
olga Posted July 27, 2010 Share Posted July 27, 2010 Welcome to our friendly asylum. Every person is different, but I have to tell you that what finally pulled me out of the Black Pit was taking an antidepressant. It was the fourth one I tried but it was BINGO! However, it sounds like you and your therapist are on top of things. We have a substance abuse forum: feel free to comment there. I think it's good for us to hear from someone who is doing his best to stay sober. Sounds like you kinda hit rock bottom. Let us know if you have a question about anything. I'm glad that you found us. olga Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sumguy Posted July 27, 2010 Author Share Posted July 27, 2010 Thank you tryp, The Emporer (my liege *bows*), jarn, and olga. Yeah I've done some looking around and have been in the addiction area. Might be helpful. Unfortunately often emotional issues and substance abuse issues get mixed up into a wonderful messy life destroyer cocktail. I'm pretty proud of my 8 months but it's just the tip of the iceburg. I did an all out faceplant on the bottom and nearly turned myself into a statistic. I can relate to allot of stuff in there. Anyway hello all. Nice to meet you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
daisy Posted July 28, 2010 Share Posted July 28, 2010 Welcome! I just wanted to tell you that I think 8 months clean is a big accomplishment. Now that you've gotten through that incredibly difficult step, this board is a great place to get support for other problems. I wish you luck! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sumguy Posted July 28, 2010 Author Share Posted July 28, 2010 Welcome! I just wanted to tell you that I think 8 months clean is a big accomplishment. Now that you've gotten through that incredibly difficult step, this board is a great place to get support for other problems. I wish you luck! Thanks Daisy I appreciate that. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Velvet Elvis Posted July 28, 2010 Share Posted July 28, 2010 I ran across this site on a google search for "What's the fucking point?" I think. I've seen that we return hits for that and considered encouraging it with an adwords campaign. Welcome. You are our target audience. I have substance abuse issues myself but am no fan of the 12 steps. I'm really trying not try to sell books in every post, but the addiction section of the crazystore is full of non 12-step addiction resources. I still drink a six pack most nights but I stay away from the hard stuff and and hardly even smoke pot anymore so by my own standards I'm doing OK. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sumguy Posted July 28, 2010 Author Share Posted July 28, 2010 I ran across this site on a google search for "What's the fucking point?" I think. I've seen that we return hits for that and considered encouraging it with an adwords campaign. Welcome. You are our target audience. I have substance abuse issues myself but am no fan of the 12 steps. I'm really trying not try to sell books in every post, but the addiction section of the crazystore is full of non 12-step addiction resources. I still drink a six pack most nights but I stay away from the hard stuff and and hardly even smoke pot anymore so by my own standards I'm doing OK. Excellent. Google knows exactly where to direct random people who put negative statements in the search engine for no reason. Thank you. I think I'm up to my ears in addiction literature at this point, or have at least had my fill. Now I think I've already spent too much time reading all the threads around here, (internet addiction perhaps?) so now I know the general layout of the land. Kinda who's who, and best of all the various forum drama. Mainly forum wars seem to concern which section is located where in the hierarchy of sections. Or the injustice of a moved thread. Absolutely no forum is complete without forum drama. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LunaRufina Posted July 28, 2010 Share Posted July 28, 2010 Mainly forum wars seem to concern which section is located where in the hierarchy of sections. Or the injustice of a moved thread. heh. This made me laugh. It's true, but it [thread movement and board placement issues] being the issue that it even is when it is seems to be a fairly recent phenomenon. More often from what I see it's basically semantics involving a particular post and builds from there. Anywho. Welcome. I hope you find some of the things you are looking for here. Luna Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rowen Posted July 28, 2010 Share Posted July 28, 2010 Hello, hello! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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