gizmo Posted August 6, 2010 Share Posted August 6, 2010 I have a script for 30 Xanax a month. I've taken up to 120, and as few as 10, but my script for 30 generally lasts 30-45 days. Well, I've been anxious as he'll with this cooking school thing. So my hubby tells me the unbelievable this morning: I have three pills left, and then I have none left until the 18th. Holy crap. Not only for the withdrawal effects I know I'll have from even sporadic use, I REALLY need it right now more than I have in awhile, because since yesterday, I'm starting to swirl the drain with all my anxious thoughts and doubt and (yes) self-pity. I need something that makes me feel even keel until I can handle my emotions a bit at a time. So my doc is gone until Tuesday, so I see another doctor Monday to discuss how I fucked up and how he can hopefully fix things for two weeks for me. I hope the doc's not a dick. Boy, my life is all fucked to six degrees of he'll. I can't ever stay out of bed the entire day. I'm such a loser. If I had a better credit score, everything would be different. But I'm a loser there too. Might as well go swim with the fishes. Bleh. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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