cherryzero Posted August 15, 2010 Share Posted August 15, 2010 I have definitely visited this site before as it has a lot of good information, but I just signed up today... mostly because I have recently started self harming again. I was never much of a cutter before, more like...hit myself in the face when I was angry at myself, but recently I started cutting and I go a little deeper every time. My husband hasn't seen it yet, we haven't been intimate in a few weeks, I gained a little weight and told him I don't feel sexy enough for that right now, which is true, but I also don't want him to see the cuts. I don't think I want to kill myself... and I know a lot of people do this just to "feel something". Which, I guess is why I am doing it.... but I like the "later on" pain as opposed to the immediate sting. I like the dull pain I guess when it's healing and I mess with it. Anyway, I don't know what else to say in this introduction so I'll keep it short... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Indigo 'n dye Posted August 15, 2010 Share Posted August 15, 2010 Hi; hello; glad to meet you, although sorry about the circumstances; welcome; come on in and make yourself comfortable.. Cheers, Indigo Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
olga Posted August 15, 2010 Share Posted August 15, 2010 Hi, Cherry. I'm glad you joined. Please visit the SI forum and talk to our other members about cutting. We have some pinned topics that deal with alternatives. We also have an active chat room, so please pop in if you need to talk to someone and you're alone. I hope we can help you with your issues. olga Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest cherryzero Posted August 16, 2010 Share Posted August 16, 2010 Thanks everyone. It's my birthday today and I got a lot of well wishes (I guess facebook isn't totally evil). I actually feel somewhat appreciated. I'm sure it won't last long!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
The Emperor Posted August 16, 2010 Share Posted August 16, 2010 Welcome to the boards! I've found them very helpful, I hope you do too! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest cherryzero Posted August 19, 2010 Share Posted August 19, 2010 wecome to CB! this place is very supportive and informing. make yourself comfortable and enjoy the company Thanks!! I love your sig about the overactive imagination. I have that too! Could be lots of fun as a child but very awkward as an adult. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cherryzero Posted August 19, 2010 Author Share Posted August 19, 2010 wecome to CB! this place is very supportive and informing. make yourself comfortable and enjoy the company Thanks!! I love your sig about the overactive imagination. I have that too! Could be lots of fun as a child but very awkward as an adult. I didn't realize I wasn't signed in when I wrote that. I'll figure this out eventually Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
who-who-who Posted August 19, 2010 Share Posted August 19, 2010 I have definitely visited this site before as it has a lot of good information, but I just signed up today... mostly because I have recently started self harming again. I was never much of a cutter before, more like...hit myself in the face when I was angry at myself, but recently I started cutting and I go a little deeper every time. My husband hasn't seen it yet, we haven't been intimate in a few weeks, I gained a little weight and told him I don't feel sexy enough for that right now, which is true, but I also don't want him to see the cuts. I don't think I want to kill myself... and I know a lot of people do this just to "feel something". Which, I guess is why I am doing it.... but I like the "later on" pain as opposed to the immediate sting. I like the dull pain I guess when it's healing and I mess with it. Anyway, I don't know what else to say in this introduction so I'll keep it short... ********************** Hi CherryZero, Have you tried EMDR therapy? Was a cutter for 21 years, that was the only therapy(out of many varieties) that got me to stop. Well, I do pick now, from time to time, though I'm able to stop b/c I am conscious of what I'm doing. Have also found D.B.T. to be very helpful. Ugh, I just saw the trailer to Black Swan... Natalie Portman, pulls feathers out of her skin (*shudder*). Brought back some bad memories of self harm...beware of that trailer/movie! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cherryzero Posted August 25, 2010 Author Share Posted August 25, 2010 Hi CherryZero, Have you tried EMDR therapy? Was a cutter for 21 years, that was the only therapy(out of many varieties) that got me to stop. Well, I do pick now, from time to time, though I'm able to stop b/c I am conscious of what I'm doing. Have also found D.B.T. to be very helpful. Ugh, I just saw the trailer to Black Swan... Natalie Portman, pulls feathers out of her skin (*shudder*). Brought back some bad memories of self harm...beware of that trailer/movie! I had EMDR maybe 8 or 9 years ago when it was still new. I felt like it really messed with my head at the time. Maybe it's better now? I don't remember anything except I was crying and upset when I left the office and went home and slept for about 12 hours straight. I don't know if it did good or made things worse. I kind of thought it was a scam at the time though. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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