Überpolarbear Posted August 16, 2010 Share Posted August 16, 2010 without lamictal i'm completely dumb. i cant even read news articles because i loose track and have to start reading the same sentence OVER AND OVER AGAIN to get it. but i'm very rational and my thoughts are organized and i know what i want in my life. i can plan stuff in advance and stuff (which is not really me) but i'm retarded otherwise. with lamictal, i'm brilliant. have a lot of good ideas. smart. can read and write with good speed and after reading some article i can actually summerize and tell what i was actually reading afterwards. but i'm irrational. emotional with reactive mood. and generally bad at making decisions and basicly very emotional and somewhat irrational. it's not mania i think. i'm just like a healthy person who tends to be rather emotional and hyper. like my father. but non the less, DO NOT WANT. does anyone has the same problem? i'm considering taking 100mg instead of 200 although 200 is actually a tiny dose for me because i'm on carbamazepine which reduces the plasma level of lamictal GREATLY. and my zyprexa does that too so 100mg would be real world 50 mg maybe even less. 100mg would be a homeopathic dose i suppose.... basicly i cant live with lamictal but cant live without either. i like being smart and able to read and write but i want to be rational too. it's not that i'm dangerously irrational. i'm just not as rational as i want to be. maybe i'm just irrational on my own and this is my nature? when you have mood swings from hell and derealization for 10 years you just forget how a normal mood actually feels like.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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