Hi.

[bethany]

I'm Bethany and I'm 17. depression, panic disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, self-injurer. 150 mg zoloft, 60 mg buspar, xanax. I've been depressed for about 3 years but didn't tell anyone until last year when I started having panic attacks and got really sick. I was having at least one a day, sometimes an hour long (I know, all the literature says panic attacks usually last a few minutes and rarely more than 30), I was cutting, very sad, generally wanted to die. This summer I got a lot better but I'm still having issues with cutting. I've "quit" a thousand times before and it usually lasts a few weeks until something happens and then I start again. It's gotten a lot worse the past week or so and I know I need to stop. That's some bad stuff, here's some good: I'm in my last year of high school, I'm a dancer--mostly ballet-- i love animals, i'm an artist--mainly painting--and i'm pretty smart. It's really weird to write about myself like this, but oh well. Thanks for reading!

Bethany

[olga]

Hi, Bethany. I'm glad you found us and I hope some of the people in our SI forum can offer support to help you with that.

Please contact a mod or admin if you don't understand something.

Are you seeing a therapist or counselor?

olga

[exl2398]

hi and welcome! I hope you are able to get the SI under control.

[The Emperor]

Hi, Bethany. For the record, I've had thoughts that lead to all day panic attacks, so that bit about it only lasting a few minutes is bullshit.

Anyway, welcome to the boards, hope to see you around!