llama44 Posted November 6, 2010 Share Posted November 6, 2010 So, ugh I really have to rant about this. I love my guy friend dearly but sometimes I secretely am jealous of him. First off his dad is a wealthy dr. and his mom has her own business. So yeah, his family is really rich. Yet he is always borrowing money from me. !? I'm the poor one! He gets SSI too. Um.....work the system much? How in the flying fuck does he deserve SSI? His parents are so flipping wealthy! They can afford to take care of him. (He also lives at home so has no rent to pay) He was on the housing list for low rent too and got pulled up for that, but opted out because why should he do that when his parents give him a place for free? I too am on the housing list but haven't been as lucky with that. I'm paying over 1/3 of my SSDI on rent currently. And get this, so I get $18 a month in food stamps, right? RIDICULOUS! He gets $200 a month in food stamps! WTF? He said his mom filled out the forms and his mom must have fibbed on certain things because how and the hell does that work? And he functions fine! He is going to school full time and handles that just fine. I am also jealous of that. I wish I wasn't so flipping crazy that I can barely leave the apartment on most days. I want to be able to drive like he does. He doesn't have hallucinations distracting him. Ugh. His diagnosis is bulimia, depression, and anxiety. And he is on more meds than I am! It's not fair! And we go through the same pdoc at the human service center and he gets free visits because he is on medicaid. He is on both seroquel and abilify, ativan, ambien, provigil, prozac, etc. WTF? And he thinks he needs more meds. How is it that someone with depression/anxiety/eating disorder is on more meds than a person with all my diagnoses? But he gets whatever the hell he wants anyways, so it's no suprise. He has a maid too. And his dad bought him a nice car. He gets custom made jewelery. Spends money on clothes like mad. Never worries about running out of money by the end of the month like I do. His dad gives him however much he needs for what his SSI doesn't cover (like gas money, clothing, jewelery, going out to eat, etc.). So yeah, I'm secretely jealous of him. We are best buds though and I don't want to ruin the friendship with this jealousy. Any tips on how I can work past this? I am happy for him in all of his success but grrr I feel like a bad person and friend for being so jealous and thinking these types of thoughts. I really do love him very much so please keep that in mind. I know it doesn't sound like it from this post but we are best friends. God I'm just about crying. I feel like a bad friend. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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