Flames Posted November 19, 2010 Share Posted November 19, 2010 My dr and myself agreed i would re-start the clozapine and I really am scared. I gained 3stones (over 30lbs) in 3 months and I know a lot of that was due to beingconfined to the ward and probably comfort eating/generally not caring about mybody, but then I would eat whilst half asleep at night as well and I could feelthe hunger after I took the evening dose but everyone who knows me well says that how great it was and it was like the old me was back. I’ve been out of the hospital a few weeks and things weregoing okay until I saw a sign written outside about brain implants and ittriggered me and now my mind is plagued again. I spoke to my dr about myconcerns and whats been going on. It was pretty clear he considered most of myworries to be due to psychosis which is worrying. I know I have been getting paranoidabout certain things, I question it when I’m not in the situation and some ofit doesn’t make sense but like my fear that my neighbour is monitoring me stillscares me, whenever I’m in the bathroom and look in the mirror I can hear himlaughing (its an old house) and I’m worried it’s some sort of two way mirror. I’vetold myself he’s lived here a while (it’s supported housing) and no one wouldhave known I was coming here to send an informant that early. I don’t know,just know Im getting stressed. I want to take the Clozapine, its the only one that hashelped with my stress and anxiety; I can’t stand being scared to go out and theconstant chatter when I’m walking, but the potential weight gain is scary,already my body has become stiff and my joints hurt. I’m not sure what to dofor the best but right now I want to go back on the clozapine. I don’t want toend up ill like I have been in the past. How do you weigh up the mental effects with the physical? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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