Somewhere To Start

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Hey All

Love the way this site runs. No shit, just get down to it. So here it is....

I have struggled with PTSD my whole life as a result of childhood abuse (physical and molestation, from age 4 to 16). It was not until recently that I was forced to face my PTSD, all of my symptoms just seemed to come out of nowhere!!!. I was admitted to a mental hospital, after suffering, self injuring, panic attacks, anxiety, anorexia, and dissociation all of which were a result of the PTSD. Needless to say everything finally caught up with me. My PTSD cost me my job, and at times it seems my life. I have been through one on one therapy, DBT therapy, and of course who could forget the medications. The medications that I take are, seroquil 250mg, celexa 40mg, topamax 250mg, and ativan .5 to 1mg as need for panic attacks. When I was in the hospital I had the lovely experience of effexor withdrawal and know all about the "brain shock" sensations. I get by day to day. Even with all the meds I still suffer my panic attacks and difficulty sleeping. I also have a hiatal hernia and acid reflux problems, the bulimia only makes it worse. The bulimia did not start until I was put on the seroquil which caused the weight gain. The symptoms of the bulimia come and go. But it is a battle, I am by no means over it.

So that is it in a nut shell. Looking forward to talking to people who understand. Where I don't have to sugar coat everything and just be real!

[weordmyndum]

Welcome...I also struggle with bulimia and PTSD, and I know how hard it is just to get by day to day sometimes.

And, man, I feel ya on the Effexor withdrawals! I was on 450 mg when I ended up going off it (tapering dose, of course), and i spent two months thinking I was dying. It wasn't fun. Interestingly, though, I had almost no trouble going off Pristiq.

Anyway, enough rambling. Glad you found us.