Um...hi? ^_^

[paprikacha]

Hi! I'm new around here, although I've been lurking for a little while now. I go by Papi/Paprika on the internet. 23, college student, work at the library of the college I'm currently attending. Was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder type 2 around age 12, and first started running the gamut of antidepressants and mood stabilizers that didn't work.

During the sophmore year of my first college, Georgia Tech, I ended up in the psych ward for the first time for a 72 hour hold after calling the campus health center in a frenzy during a severe depressive spike. It was there that they tacked on a touch of OCD (not severe at all) and Generalized Anxiety disorder. I went back to school, but kept screwing up, and couldn't understand why taking my medicine correctly wasn't doing the job, and I ended up in the psych ward once more. It wasn't until I screwed up for good and lost financial aid that my campus-appointed shrink dropped the words 'Borderline Personality Disorder'. So, as you can see, I am a cornucopia of mental issues, including a tendency to self-harm when upset. Medicine doesn't work well for me. Currently, my p-doc is trying Abilify -- this might result in me baking the pills into a pie and throwing it at her. Or throwing a brick. Something will get thrown.

Hobby wise, I'm a geek. I love video games, especially RPGs, and anything related to science fiction (movies, novels) and anime (...not Naruto, for the LOVE OF GOD). I like to write -- if I can ever manage to finish a story, I'd love to be a writer. I also love reading/knitting; at the moment I'm (finally) working my way through the Harry Potter books and loving them. : )

During my good moments, I can be extremely amusing and witty; in my depressive states (which is most of the damn time) I'm much quieter, and a lot more shy and prone to being embarrassed about saying ANYTHING. I do get extremely frustrated/irritated at points, but I never take it out on actual people -- generally it's directed back at myself. I'm a peacemaker by nature, and not really given to confrontations, so you don't have to worry about me being a jerk. Hopefully I'll find some like-minded people here, and I definitely hope I can be of help to someone else. I like supporting people when I can. *polite bow*

[olga]

Welcome to Crazyboards! I hope we can give you some good information.

I would say more, but it's way too early for my brain to be in gear.

olga

[weordmyndum]

Welcome! You sound a lot like me, actually, even down to losing a college scholarship (at Bama) after one too many hospitalizations. I also don't appear to respond to meds--to the point that my team is now looking at ECT for me. And geekiness! Yay! I'm a geek of the literary and sci-fi varieties.