crzybtch79 Posted December 10, 2010 Share Posted December 10, 2010 I'm a 31 yr old female, and a victim of that horrible depression monster that took me on a wild fu@ked up ride for the last 5 years. I guess it started out with the pregnancy of my youngest son. I have 2 boys, 14 & 5. went into severe postpartum depression and I guess it didn't go away cause its still creeping around a little. I have been on the biggest roller coaster of my life that included different psychs, at least 5 different anti depressants including zoloft, lexapro, effexor, prozac, and wellbutrin. I was put on xanax and became a complete mess. Checked myself into rehab for xanax, alcoholism, and cocaine addiction all while raising my kids. I have smashed cars, cheated, lied, and well i was just a fu@ked up mess. For over a year now, i am nearly sober (I'm no angel) though. I will tell you a little more in an updated thread. I am now taking daily 30mg of adderall 150 mg Wellbutrin XL 0.5-2 mg of clonzepam (rarely but when needed) I sometimes only take .25 mg during the day I barely need it anymore I have been slowly turning back into the person I used to be. (energetic, happy, motivated) Still have a loooong way to go. I would love to meet and swap stories with similar people Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
olga Posted December 10, 2010 Share Posted December 10, 2010 Welcome to Crazyboards. You can say "fucked-up" around here and you won't get your hand slapped. heh Sounds like you've had a difficult time of things and I hope we can offer some support and advice. Have you ever tried Wellbutrin at 300mg? If you are still depressed, maybe you need a higher dose. It's worth asking about. olga Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
The Emperor Posted December 10, 2010 Share Posted December 10, 2010 Welcome to the fucking boards! I always love it when someone doesn't know if they can swear or not. I had really bad PPD as well and have also tried many AD's as you can see in my signature, though most of those were to treat anxiety. Anyway, really cool place to be with lots of cool people to relate to. Hope you stick around! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
crzybtch79 Posted December 10, 2010 Author Share Posted December 10, 2010 Thanks so much for the welcome I was taking 300mg Wellbutrin but my so called depression seemed to be untreatable. I have gone to psychologists who would send me to different psychologists who would be a "better fit" and then trying a new one after 2 sessions would not see me until I see a Psychiatrist. Then the co-pay is too high for this doc and so on. How the hell is one supposed to deal with that when going through an extreme episode I was seriously crushed. How many times in 6 months do I have to start over and tell my whole story? I don't think i have been properly diagnosed. I am now starting to feel better little by little with the help of Adderall. I started 2 months ago and I see a huge difference. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PipD45 Posted December 10, 2010 Share Posted December 10, 2010 I am now taking daily 30mg of adderall 150 mg Wellbutrin XL 5-10 mg of clonzepam (rarely but when needed) I sometimes only take 2.5mg during the day Huh that's pretty crazy - I take the exact same stuff, and almost same amounts. I guess I can use the term crazy around here lightly though huh? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
crzybtch79 Posted December 11, 2010 Author Share Posted December 11, 2010 I am now taking daily 30mg of adderall 150 mg Wellbutrin XL 5-10 mg of clonzepam (rarely but when needed) I sometimes only take 2.5mg during the day Huh that's pretty crazy - I take the exact same stuff, and almost same amounts. I guess I can use the term crazy around here lightly though huh? I just realized I put down too much clonzepam. I Used to take 2mg a day, I now only take .25-.05 doring the day when needed, and sometimes 1mg to knock me out at night. I had a benzo addiction and slowly weaned myself off of xanax with the clonzepam. I try to take it only when really needed. The withdrawals from xanax were hardcore. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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