mcjimjam Posted December 10, 2010 Share Posted December 10, 2010 Hi everyone, I'm not really new I've just returned and made a new account. I'm a 20 year old guy from Australia. I have been suffering from mental health issues since I was 15. Since then I haven't really been able to achieve much academically. I still haven't finished high school and don't have a job at the moment. I recently moved states with my family and have started seeing a new psychiatrist who thinks I might have bipolar disorder as oppose to normal depression. I am seeing him for free through a community mental health team. I would like to see a therapist as well but with limited funds this may not be achievable. This possibility of bipolar disorder on the one hand scares me in that it suggests I will suffer from mental health problems for life. I know some people succeed in spite of it but so far I definitely haven't. I feel cursed. On the other hand I feel almost a surge of relief that perhaps the pattern of my life since puberty has some explanation. I feel like in looking at the time-line of my life in the context of possible bipolar I can finally see the big picture. Maybe if my doctor and I know what's happening to me it can be better treated and prepared for in the future? I am struggling in this new town. I'm isolating myself. I'm afraid to go out and meet people. Afraid they won't like me. SURE they won't like me. I have been reclusive for a long time now. I was getting really paranoid around my friends and eventually I just couldn't take it anymore and had to stay away from them. The paranoia started a couple of years ago when I was fucked up on meth so hopefully it will one day subside since I don't do drugs anymore. Anyway, that's probably enough about me for now. If anyone wants to know more or chat then feel free to PM me. Cheers Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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