Smorky Posted December 14, 2010 Share Posted December 14, 2010 Hi, I'm Smorky. I'm a 19-year-old uterus-- I mean, woman-- and while I am skeptical that there is anyone I'll feel comfortable talking about my problems to, I often do anyway. I don't feel too hopeful at this time in my life. I have attempted suicide 3 times, and as you probably guessed from me typing here, I survived each attempt. I haven't attempted all that recently, the most recent being January of this year. I have been hospitalized 4 times for depression, 5 counting the one time I didn't let them send me to a treatment center after a suicide attempt. I know there are people out there that have it worse than me, and it honestly does not make me feel better when people tell me that. I would in fact say I end up feeling like total shit when they try to make me look at the bright side of things. I have been diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, Bipolar Disorder, some sort of anxiety disorder, Tourette's Syndrome-- which was triggered by some quack who was switching my meds around suddenly and often without rhyme or reason-- Poly-Cystic Ovarian Syndrome, a pituitary microadenoma which is benign but REALLY inconvenient in other ways, and a learning disability known as Nonverbal Learning Disorder. Those are just the main ones if that gives you any idea how long my disability checklist goes on. I started my second semester of college this fall, and was attending full time so I could stay on my parents' insurance until I'm 25. The semester before I was attending part time, and finished with an A and a B as my final grades for the two classes I was taking. This semester I stopped attending half way through, because I was overwhelmed and was generally feeling full of myself about starting my life, and scared shit-less about not being able to perfect every little detail in my assignments. I have trashed my GPA, I will probably not be going back to college on my parents' dime. I don't know what to expect from this site, but I'm gonna stick around to find out. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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