red_dirt_angel Posted March 7, 2011 Share Posted March 7, 2011 Hey everyone Just a quick intro to me, I feel that it's kinda obligatory at this stage - I've been lurking for a while, and I think it's time to start joining in I have been struggling with MI for the past 3 years, and probably a long time before that... I've been through countless diagnoses: depression, anxiety, bipolar, panic disorder, epilepsy (not sure how this one came about, but thankfully it was a false alarm), and now we seem to have settled at borderline personality disorder. Which I'm happy with. I'm by no means a google self-diagnoser, but I have done my research and had pretty much come to the same conclusion by the time my pdoc did. I get really bad panic attacks which can be crippling some nights (as I'm sure heaps of you understand first-hand), and often have issues with dissociation - this one worries me the most, as there is practically no warning before it happens, and a few times now it has landed me in ED after OD'ing on various things. I also SI, which I'm trying really hard to stop, or at least understand why it is happening so I can figure out better ways to cope in those situations. I have an awesome tdoc, who I've now been seeing every week for over a year, and I don't think anyone understands me quite as well as he does. My pdoc is new, they seem to change every 6 months or so, but the clinic I go to is really good, so the changeovers are pretty seamless when they do happen. Other than that... I'm an Aussie girl, I'm 27 yrs old, have an awesome job which I started about 4 months ago... I live with 2 housemates who are seriously getting on my nerves at the moment (but that shall pass soon when one of them is moving out!!! woohoo!), and have just started studying part-time at uni (Bachelor of Arts, majoring in... wait for it... Psychology!!! am I nuts? why, yes I just might be ). Today is a good day. Some days are so bad I wish I could disappear. Writing this, I feel like I don't belong here, because I sound "normal", and positive. I feel like a fraud, when I'm actually happy, because I know that deep down the BPD lies waiting for one small thing to trigger it off. But I'm going to enjoy today as much as I can, so that I can look back on it when things get tough again :) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
red_dirt_angel Posted March 7, 2011 Author Share Posted March 7, 2011 Oops. Probably should have mentioned here too... I'm currently taking 20mg Lexapro, and 25mg Seroquel... The Seroquel I couldn't live without. Lexapro - that's another story... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
crtclms Posted March 7, 2011 Share Posted March 7, 2011 Even the best of us have normal days. I saw "Red-dirt-girl" and thought "Australia." What formation is your avatar? I am American, but have traveled to Australia several times, and my sister lives there. A lot of people here went through several diagnoses before their p-doc settled on one. But something you've probably already seen here if you have been lurking, the important thing is treating the symptoms. But it is kind of a comfort to be able to "know." I was lucky (haha) in that my initial diagnoses went from MDD to BP within 3 months. Welcome to CBs! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wag Posted March 7, 2011 Share Posted March 7, 2011 Welcome to CB!!! Glad your here!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
olga Posted March 7, 2011 Share Posted March 7, 2011 Hi, red dirt girl! Welcome to Crazyboards and don't worry about telling people about your meds and other details. I mean, it's fine to do it, but not a requirement in order to hang out here. Be sure to read the rules when you have time and call on one of the mods or admins if you have a concern. olga Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mynameisiforgot Posted March 7, 2011 Share Posted March 7, 2011 Yay another Australian! Hey! I'm an Aussie girl too. I get so excited when I find more Australians on here! Hope you enjoy CB. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Vapourware Posted March 7, 2011 Share Posted March 7, 2011 Welcome to the boards, from one Aussie to another. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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