BlueSpottedTail Posted April 22, 2011 Share Posted April 22, 2011 I'm 20, male, live in a smallish hipster town in Texas. I like drugs, especially pot, opiates, and acid. I hear things. I hear laughter, my name being called, knocking, footsteps following me, and occasionally a scream or two. I don't know why I hear these things, but I do. This obviously makes me a very paranoid person, and changes my personality drastically. I love socializing, but I am an introvert by nature, and these problems only further complicate that. I also have massive and very deep rooted self-confidence problems, even though I know I'm an attractive guy with plenty of friends. When people are talking and I can't hear what they're saying, it' automatically negative things about me. If I walk past strangers laughing, I assume they're laughing at me. I hear people laughing at me even when nobody is there. I have contemplated suicide before, but it's not something I could ever actually do. But I have spent a good deal of time thinking about it. I also have very strong impulses to do extreme physical harm to myself. I'll be driving my car, and I'll think of a time I tripped in front of a group of people years ago, and have the impulse to drive off the bridge. I realize normal people don't remember things like that, much less care about them. I'm pretty sure that Its my fate to live a doomed existence. I feel like I am losing my mind every day, and have nobody to talk about this to. And that's me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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