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Hi.

Umm...never really thought I'd join a discussion forum related to my...umm..."issue." Rather, I'd just root around band sites or whatever...and yet here I am.

Initially, when I was younger, I was diagnosed as having anxiety disorder...then a shrink decided I was depressed all the time (no kidding?!) and put me on welbutrin, lexapro and zoloft...all at the same time. I felt completely coked out of my gourd. I stopped seeing him and spent the last bunch of years self-medicating.

Now I'm seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist. The reality is that I'm a rapid cycling bi polar with psychotic tendencies...suicidal thoughts, cutting, delusions etc and I'm an insomniac.

I'm currently taking lamictal, depacote, abilify and temazepam in order to get me to sleep through the night.

I'm a guy in my thirties and one of the things that is driving me batty about this whole thing is that I feel so teenage girlish admitting that I'm a bipolar cutter...does anyone know what I mean? I'm not putting down teenage girls by any means and I don't mean to trigger anyone, god know...it's just that I've never met another guy who cut himself or abused himself the way I have.

Anyway...that's my piece for now. The site looks promising.

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Welcome to CB!

The common stereotype is that of the teenage girl, but I'm pretty sure bipolar is spread about equally between men and women, and that self-harm is common among those who suffer with it (especially if you've self-medicated for a long time). I can say that around here, we run the gamut as far as age, sex, and various diagnoses. I'm confident that once you start hanging around here, posting and getting to know people, you'll find you're a lot less of a pariah than you fear. :) See you round the boards.

P.S. Pet Sounds kicks ass.

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Welcome. I think you will be able to find people here who can relate to your experience.

Take a look at the rules and feel free to PM a mod or admin if you need help with anything.

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Thanks everyone. I really appreciate the warm welcome.

I spent a good portion of the day and evening yesterday perusing and I think this is a good place for me to be.:)

I've needed an outlet beyond my one BP friend and my therapist and I've craved the freedom and comfort of discussing things with people who "understand" and not have to worry about always being so guarded.....not that I want to just let the flood gates open and unleash everything all at once or anything but I think I'll enjoy reading the threads and contributing as appropriate.

Thanks again!

...and it's great to see some love for Pet Sounds from OddJob!

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