marbles16 Posted May 31, 2011 Share Posted May 31, 2011 i've been browsing this site for a little over a year now. finally worked up the courage to get on it..... welll here goes! i'm 16, and i've been depressed since 12. in the span of those years, 3 half-hearted suicide attempts, disordered eating, panicking, anxiety, and a lot of cutting. i didn't really know why but relatively recently i've uncovered some repressed memories. at 10/11, i was kind of forced into blowing an older boy. (this one resurfaced the first time i voluntarily performed oral sex). since then i've come to remember more things. i was r*ped at 12, and dispite the fact i hadn't gotten a period yet, wound up pregnant (talk about bad timing, huh?) trying to hide the sudden weight gain, and pretty fucked up by the experience, i stopped eating all together, in addition to terrible morning sickness. which led to a miscarriage at around two and a half months (i figure malnutrition?). Strangely, apart from feeling worse about remembering these things, i feel more validated, or less confused. is that weird? i've never shared this story before... but i felt now was as good a time as any Marbles Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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