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[ldc]

6 years ago, I felt like I was getting my depression under control. I'd just begun to feel the effects of 400 mg buproprion daily. Got a promotion, very likely a result of renewed confidence and focus. Stayed on my meds, liked my new job, liked the people I worked with, loved my family. . . Resigned myself to probably needing meds forever (this was not my first depressive episode, but bupropion was the first AD w/tolerable side effects that was effective.). Some family w/similar issues, so I just have to accept the bad in my genetics as well as the good.

Fast forward a relatively uneventful 5 years, when everything changed. Moved halfway across the country due to my husband's relocation. Being more isolated here, not working every day, things started to slide and . . . here I am. Shadows steadily creeping in. Motivation to do much of anything shot. Seeking help, just added to meds, waiting for results.

On a rational level, I know I need more than the meds, and there are some volunteer efforts pending, that I hope will get me out and interested in something. Or maybe I can find more satisfaction maintaining our home (I never was a housewife, worked all my life, back on the job 6 weeks after giving birth). I don't want a 9-5 job, because my husband's job gives me the chance to travel with him on occasion, and I like being able to pick up and go when he's headed somewhere interesting.

On a rational level, I know I'm lucky, that I have a husband who may not always understand me but always loves me. And we have good insurance, etc., so I can get the treatment I need, and I don't "have" to work. On a rational level, I know I can take up hobbies and whatnot that I never had time for as a working mom and wife. Regular exercise, for example - Haven't been a model of fitness for many years. The talk therapy I had a few years ago focused somewhat on not burying the activities and interests that make me "me" - and now, I CAN indulge in my outside interests. On a rational level, I think that could really be fun.

Needless to say, this uptick in depression isn't "rational". I am not having fun. I am not enjoying what I used to, or what new things I've gotten into. I don't want to do much of anything.

I want to get back into "remission" so to speak. . . If the Pristiq being added doesn't cut it, I'm willing to try something else, but months and months of experimenting with head meds isn't something I look forward to.

Anyway, that's my present state.

[The Emperor]

Welcome to CB, Idc! I'm sorry you aren't feeling good right now, I really hope that the Pristiq helps you too! Good luck and I hope to see you around!

[tryp]

Welcome Hopefully the Pristiq will help and you won't have to do too much tinkering.

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