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Hey all.

Boy howdy, am I glad I stumbled upon this place when doing a Google search for something med related.

I spent the better part of yesterday looking at 'support' forums and feeling queasy. I just didn't think I'd fit.

So, here I am. Please give me a little while to look around and I'll come out of my shell a little at a time.

Long story short- I don't feel as much like I'm going over the falls of life without the proverbial barrel but more like I'm hurtling through the time vortex without the benefit of a TARDIS.

I'll get into my official dx(s) and all that stuff soon.

Thanks for creating this place, grateful to be here.

(oh, and please do really feel free to call me liz. or LQ. or something short because i am way too whacked out on meds to type that long-ass username i picked because i thought it was funny every time i sign a post and ditto at the moment on just creating a signature. i'll get there, i promise. and no, liz isn't my real name so no worries there, if that's a thing here. i have yet to learn the 'things' here. be gentle with me. i don't want to create any 'things' that will get me into trouble.)

~liz

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Welcome to the Boards Lizzie! (I happen to like the user name.)

Why thank you! and Lizzie is making me laugh- always a good thing.

Thanks for the warm welcome everybody- hope to be able to contribute around here as best I can and 'earn my keep' so to speak. I'm new to this forum of course but years in the trenches on many a message board of many kinds so hopefully I'll be able to find a little corner to hang out in around here.

Until I get the 'official' letter with my dx(s) (they were supposed to have it ready for me on the last day of my two week day program "partial hospitalization" thingie but nope) I'm holding off putting them into a sig or anything but what I think I heard my Pdoc say was bipolar I (though I heard 'mixed' several times so not sure if that's an actual difference in the dx itself or just the state i was in at the time. i seem to be in a mixed state all the time, though, so there you go...) OCD, and Anxiety disorder (again waiting on the flavor of the month label to be affixed to it to make it all officially official. though at this point about half a dozen doctors- three pdocs, my fantastic primary care guy and every tdoc i saw in and out of the 'day program thingie' all concurred on the bipolar mixed state assessment....but i'm one of those people, i like to see it in writing...

previous dxs since my 20s (back during the ice age...or as you'd call them, the 90's.) major depression, ocd, panic disorder, and a couple years back they added a little ptsd but who knows where it all lands now that they finally put the pieces together and realized that when i stay up for days on end writing, painting, and doing otherwise that kind of artistic stuff, that might be kind of manic. it took me totally wigging out (ie, not being able to do any of those things for months on end, as the rest of my life turned totally upside down, general mayhem and chaos- days without sleep...you know the drill) to finally get the right diagnosis. they usually only saw me before when i was really down- but the truth is that i have been 'this way' whatever 'this way' is, since I was a really little kid.

i dread that the bipolar dx is right. but i know in my heart that it is and now i'm trying to accept it. i'm trying to accept it's just a part of who i am. i've always been different anyway, but i will admit this is tricky stuff.

i also have a 'constellation' of health issues too so that just adds to the fun (15 surgeries in 24 months- the last one was back in March but more may be looming in the near horizon, will find that out next week waiting on (another) specialist)-- i'm sure you all can relate in one way or another to that too. i know everybody has stuff in addition to the whole 'crazy' thing we've got going on so i hope to offer some support and understanding there too.

anyway- a bit more about me there. i will definitely be reading around the forums to get to know you all by your posts as i go along. but my meds just kicked in- so tired.

again- so glad to have found this place, thanks for making me feel really welcome.

night all, talk to you soon.

~thelizardqueen

("or, lizzy, if ya like", she said, in her best Jack Sparrow voice...)

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Long story short- I don't feel as much like I'm going over the falls of life without the proverbial barrel but more like I'm hurtling through the time vortex without the benefit of a TARDIS.

~liz

Hello and welcome.

Have you considered the Total Perspective Vortex of Douglas Adams' Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy series?

-The Total Perspective Vortex is allegedly the most horrible torture device to which a sentient being can be subjected.

When you are put into the Vortex you are given just one momentary glimpse of the entire unimaginable infinity of creation, and somewhere in it a tiny little mark, a microscopic dot on a microscopic dot, which says, "You are here."-

Douglas Adams suggested the Total Perspective Vortex illustrated that "In an infinite universe, the one thing sentient life cannot afford to have is a sense of proportion."

A lot of enlightening and thoughtful stuff amongst the silliness in HHGTTG.

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Long story short- I don't feel as much like I'm going over the falls of life without the proverbial barrel but more like I'm hurtling through the time vortex without the benefit of a TARDIS.

Hey, if River Song and Captain Jack Hotness-I-mean-Harkness can get by with just their snazzy little wrist thingies instead of a blue box named Sexy with bunk beds and a swimming pool... ^_^

(Sorry. Unrepentant Whovian on deck.)

Emettman: I described my last stay in The Bin to someone as being "worse than three days of Vogon poetry". However, I do always know where my towel is. I have several, just to make sure. (Did you snicker as much as I did when the yellow Kodak PictureMaker kiosks started being installed in stores and had that motion-activated recording about how now you could "share and enjoy your Kodak pictures with your family and friends"? I used to ask it for tea just to make my friends clutch at their throats and make gagging noises.)

In Real LifeTM, if someone doesn't know who Douglas Adams, Doctor Who, or Terry Pratchett (preferably at least two out of three) are, it's hopeless, there is no way we can be friends. They're just not weird in the right-enough ways.

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Ah, I knew somehow that here, I'd be among my own kind.

I may not always remember where I parked my TARDIS but I am a pretty hoopy frood who always knows where her towel is.

:D

Unrepentant Whovian, (Davvvvidddd! I misssss David *sob*), Trekkie, Jedi in training (HOW long do the friggin' Trials last, anyway? I think I've been undergoing them for about a decade now....) and admirer of all things Douglas...(By the way, have either of you two fine folks ever seen City of Death, the old Doctor Who episode written by none other than the Great Adams himself? A friend sent me the DVD for my birthday last year, and it's a riot. Nothing like aliens who pull off rubber 'human' masks revealing larger alien rubber masks...and I am going to have to do a version of Tom Baker's scarf for myself only in girl colors (pink, purple, a lovely periwinkle, perhaps...)

Thanks for making me feel so welcome and sorry Emettman and Once Upon A Time that I missed your replies earlier. Thanks for not only making me feel welcome but making me feel like I belong!

(and I am also a poet who fears her work may be even worse than that of Paula Nancy Millstone Jennings...)

~lq

PS gopurdue:I admit a trepidation toward real lizards but then I do love the teensy little ones that run around in FL. Was on vacation there a few years back and had one almost drop itself down my dress though- if I hadn't sidestepped it would have turned into a very interesting evening indeed.

thanks again everybody :)

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Ah, I knew somehow that here, I'd be among my own kind.

I may not always remember where I parked my TARDIS but I am a pretty hoopy frood who always knows where her towel is.

You're well ahead of me there, I have yet to attain hoopiness. I think it's the fact that so many of the folks here refuse to take their various MIs So Teddibly Teddibly Seriously and insist on having a healthy disrespect for and sense of humor about the utter lunacy of our lunacies that make it such a nifty place, unlike the majority of the MI boards. I'm actually annoyed with myself that I dithered around lurking for so long!

Unrepentant Whovian, (Davvvvidddd! I misssss David *sob*),

I think the general consensus across the Whoniverse is that while Eleven may have his good points, he can't hold a candle or even a lit match to our dear Mr Tennant. I do not go to movie theaters as a general rule simply because the seating tends to cause PAIN, and movie remakes are usually irritating anyway, I may have to make an exception for "Fright Night". Have you seen the trailers? David... shirtless and wearing leather trousers so tight you can practically tell what religion he is and so low you can estimate how much he tips his waxer, doing a marvelously camp send-up of what could only be the love child of Dave Navarro and Jack Sparrow. I may have to bring ice packs to guard against spontaneous combustion. (And one must admit that Amy Pond kicks the crap outta that shrieking harpy Donna in the Companion role... I was rather disappointed that Kylie Minogue only did that one-off - "Voyage of the Damned" - because she was so surprisingly good as a Companion. We're supposed to want to smack Rory upside the head with a cricket bat in at least every other episode, right? Wanted to make sure it wasn't just me.)

I admit with head held low in shame that I am a second-generation Whovian - although my dad occasionally (rarely) watched the original series on PBS in the 70s, I couldn't get past the dreadful "effects" and found it intensely irritating... I could not figure out why people were so excited about upturned trash cans with toilet plungers and eggbeaters stuck on rolling around blerping "EX-TER-MEE-NATE". It was my ex-husband who got me onto Who via Torchwood. (I don't have Starz so I don't know what sort of mess they've made of the program I loved so much until its literal butchering at the end of the third season.) I can get DVDs of previous Who series through the library and if I ever figure out how to hook up my dvd player with this horrid cable-box I plan to go straight through One through Eight, if I can.

(and I am also a poet who fears her work may be even worse than that of Paula Nancy Millstone Jennings...)

That IS an impressive achievement! I ceased the production of poetry for the sake of the Greater Good approximately twenty years ago. I had three pieces published in a university annual literary "journal", which convinced me beyond any doubt of its sheer dreadfulness, since that particular fishwrap birdcage-liner table-leg leveler publication was primarily dedicated to the dissemination of angst-ridden Sylvia Plath wannabes' Art-with-a-Capital-A (which was more correctly, if you'll excuse the phrasing, public masturbation with an IBM Selectric).

Enough out of me for now! :nerdy:

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Aww, never enough of you! I thoroughly enjoyed that even if i can't form a coherent reply to it today. unfortunately i don't think i could see fright night even with the promise of david in it...

you just feel free to keep right on talking about this stuff just as long as you're enjoying it! even if my brain is too fried to respond in a more indepth manner, i am really enjoying reading it!

lizzie

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Ah, not only do I know where my towel is I know what it is: one of the earliest design of the HHGTTG towels, like this one...

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Now over 25 years old.

Yes, most decidedly a HHGTTG follower.

"The point is, you see,'' said Ford, ``that there is no point in driving yourself mad trying to stop yourself going mad. You might just as well give in and save your sanity for later.'' "

And definitely so for Sir Terry Pratchett, Wizard, too.

An awful lot of reality and sanity in his fantasy and madness.

As for Who, I'm old enough to be one of those who hark back to the earlier days, never mind the shaky scenery and dubious special effects. Jon Pertwee and Tom Baker, basically.

OK, some of the new episodes work, and a few have been as good as any Who with any Doctor.

Let's throw a new name into the mix: Neil Gaiman.

His Sandman series also features the idea of "His madness keeps him sane" in one episode, and his novel "American Gods" eventually resulted in in me flying the Atlantic to see one particular setting he had used...

The most amazing place I have ever been, and that is saying something.

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lizzie - whyfor no "Fright Night"? Don't dig the vampire schtick (and FN is a very schticky, silly movie) (sorry for the pun). I do wish I'd had the opportunity to see some of David's Shakespearean work - apparently his "Hamlet" was genius. Maybe his role as Benedick in "Much Ado About Nothing" made up for that dreadful Catherine Tate (as Beatrice).

I could really use a 55-gallon drum of "wibbly wobbly timey wimey stuff" right about now. (And I'll just say in passing that agoraphobia - I just noticed it in your signature - sucks and you have my sympathy. For about two years I could only go to familiar places WITH a familiar person, if I tried to go to a new place or go somewhere alone I invariably had a panic attack. I did better for a long time but it's getting worse again now that I have to go everywhere alone. The anxiety spikes, I have to drug up and about 8 times out of 10 I wimp out now. My tdoc sent me to a Meetup and I cried the whole way over, stopped at every 7-11 for the bathroom, and gagged in the parking lot. couldn't go in. And it was just a group for playing stupid board games, not like a flirty singles thing.)

Emettman - not to mention the utter heartbreak of Pterry's early-onset Alzheimer's. It was a painful (if I may say so myself) attempt at demonstrating decency that I left behind all but two of the entire collection of Pratchett novels (I did take "Pyramids" and "Good Omens") when ex gave me the drop-kick. Pratchett's "Good Omens" with Neil Gaiman was my introduction to Gaiman, and whilst I still do not care much for his graphic novels (I simply don't have a taste for the genre, despite multiple attempts) I did develop a taste for his novels. "American Gods" is indeed lunatic genius. Let me guess, you went to the "House On The Rock"? Gaiman's recent episode for "Who" was creepily wonderful, but I don't know which adjective should dominate. I remember the first-gen Doctor Who seria (just as I remember the wretchedness that was the attempt at televising "HHGTTG"), I just failed to find the appeal at the time. Is/was Jon Pertwee the one who wore the celery stalk?

And a sad goodbye - too young, too young! - to Elisabeth Slater (Sarah Jane Smith). I was unenthusiastic about "The Sarah Jane Adventures" program but SJS was a wonderful character.

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I have been known to quote HHGTTG in serious articles about bureaucracy. Beware of the Leopard!

Didn't have a big 40th birthday celebration. Saving that for my 42nd :) Does that make me weird?

Have people seen the Hitchhikers Guide to the Daleks? http://m.io9.com/5570933/the-hitchhikers-guide-to-the-daleks

The Sandman was my introduction to Gaiman - I do like graphic novels as a genre, and love it. Only discovered Good Omens later.

Was lucky enough to meet Pterry earlier this year (and get a sneak peek at his then-unreleased new book Snuff).

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lizzie - whyfor no "Fright Night"? Don't dig the vampire schtick (and FN is a very schticky, silly movie) (sorry for the pun). I do wish I'd had the opportunity to see some of David's Shakespearean work - apparently his "Hamlet" was genius. Maybe his role as Benedick in "Much Ado About Nothing" made up for that dreadful Catherine Tate (as Beatrice).

I could really use a 55-gallon drum of "wibbly wobbly timey wimey stuff" right about now. (And I'll just say in passing that agoraphobia - I just noticed it in your signature - sucks and you have my sympathy. For about two years I could only go to familiar places WITH a familiar person, if I tried to go to a new place or go somewhere alone I invariably had a panic attack. I did better for a long time but it's getting worse again now that I have to go everywhere alone. The anxiety spikes, I have to drug up and about 8 times out of 10 I wimp out now. My tdoc sent me to a Meetup and I cried the whole way over, stopped at every 7-11 for the bathroom, couldn't go in. And it was just a group for playing stupid board games, not like a flirty singles thing.)

Emettman - not to mention the utter heartbreak of Pterry's early-onset Alzheimer's. It was a painful (if I may say so myself) attempt at demonstrating decency that I left behind all but two of the entire collection of Pratchett novels (I did take "Pyramids" and "Good Omens") when ex gave me the drop-kick. Pratchett's "Good Omens" with Neil Gaiman was my introduction to Gaiman, and whilst I still do not care much for his graphic novels (I simply don't have a taste for the genre, despite multiple attempts) I did develop a taste for his novels. "American Gods" is indeed lunatic genius. Let me guess, you went to the "House On The Rock"? Gaiman's recent episode for "Who" was creepily wonderful, but I don't know which adjective should dominate. I remember the first-gen Doctor Who seria (just as I remember the wretchedness that was the attempt at televising "HHGTTG"), I just failed to find the appeal at the time. Is/was Jon Pertwee the one who wore the celery stalk?

And a sad goodbye - too young, too young! - to Elisabeth Slater (Sarah Jane Smith). I was unenthusiastic about "The Sarah Jane Adventures" program but SJS was a wonderful character.

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"...you just feel free to keep right on talking about this stuff just as long as you're enjoying it! even if my brain is too fried to respond in a more indepth manner, i am really enjoying reading it!"

lizzie

I'l take you at your word, lizzie: this thread may wander all over the place, but it's still yours.

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Emettman - not to mention the utter heartbreak of Pterry's early-onset Alzheimer's.

An "embuggerment", as he called it. Yes, not what would happen in a fair and reasonable world.

Let me guess, you went to the "House On The Rock"? Gaiman's recent episode for "Who" was creepily wonderful, but I don't know which adjective should dominate. I remember the first-gen Doctor Who seria (just as I remember the wretchedness that was the attempt at televising "HHGTTG"), I just failed to find the appeal at the time. Is/was Jon Pertwee the one who wore the celery stalk?

Yes the House On The Rock, as well; as the Forevertron, the DeForest Pink Elephant and a selection of other unusual "Roadside Amerieca" locations in Wisconsin. I had the Wisconsin Dells described to me as "Las Vegas without the taste", but I enjoyed the Duck, DUKW, ride, amongst other amusements and amazements.

The House on the Rock out-classed or out-weirded them all though, by long way.

I can see how some people would not "get" it. I "got it" in spades.

Fortunately there were two or three sections I was not especially interested in, or I might not have got through it at all, suffering from terminal jawdrop. As it was it took me two full days to begin to appreciate it.

One of the not-too-many-places one my "make an effort to go there *again*" list.

This is the best "House on the Rock" photo-gallery I have found. Certainly better than my photos.

http://www.pbase.com/ysic/the_house_on_the_rock

We vary: I actually preferred the characters and voices in the BBC TV series (despite the cardboard sets and weak special effects (excepting the marvellous Book graphics)) to the bigger budget mess that was the film version. By a long way.

No, that was the Fifth Doctor Peter Davison. Not a favourite.

Jon Pertwee was the Third Doctor, and in real history served in the navy in WW2 and was transferred from HMS Hood to be an officer cadet just before she was sunk by the Bismarck (with only three survivors).

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