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I often get what I'd term 'mini-delusions'. They run a duration of anywhere from a few hours to a few days and then they leave. Before and after, I'm quite aware they are delusions. During, however, I'm 100% convinced that it is the gospel truth. Like, last week I had a few days where I was certain my work PC was putting thoughts into my head. So, my question is, are there techniques to help me 'ride out' these delusions? I'm currently concentrating on de-stressing as much as possible.

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I think you need to contact your pdoc because what you are experiencing is breakthrough psychosis. You should not have to "ride out" these delusions. You meds can be adjusted and make this go away.

In the meantime, all I can suggest is reality checking, and what reality checking you do depends upon the delusion you are having.

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I can relate - a lot of my experiences involve having some insight that my beliefs are not based in reality, yet I still believe them. For me, it can be quite disconcerting and also confusing.

What I've found helpful is reality-testing. If I was getting the experience that my PC was putting thoughts in my head, I would firstly note to myself that the PC is an inanimate object with no means of putting thoughts into my head. Secondly, the PC is a device that I use to input and store information, and to voluntarily attain information myself - the PC, by itself, is not sentient. It also helps to talk to trusted people about these experiences because they can help talk you through the thoughts and ground you.

It is also an idea to talk to your pdoc about these experiences. It could be that your meds are not completely working and you may need a med tweak.

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When I was at my worst I would find a way to rationalize every little thing that would supposedly deter my belief, for instance getting 100 or so miles away from the initial issue solved nothing and somehow that made sense to me. If I were in your shoes that day I would sit there for a moment and acknowledge that its my belief that the computer is putting thoughts into my head, then turn off and unplug the computer and go somewhere quiet. If you are still uncomfortable and having intrusive thoughts you have proven to yourself that it is nothing but psychosis, and you can proceed with that understanding.

I hope this helps, like everyone said, just my brand of reality check.

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Do you have any history of making your delusions stop being so believeable? I mean, if you did something like what Eden suggested, would it work? Would it motivate you to call your pdoc if the delusion continued? I have had delusions where this logic testing is something I might think to do and have it be enough to prove the delusion wasn't reality or leave a real question about reality but call my pdoc. If you have a lot of this history, then going with that approach might make sense. If not, if your delusions persist regardless of evidence to the contrary, then call your pdoc to deal with the breakthrough psychosis through meds.

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I don't think it would help. I've had friends sit me down and tell a particular delusion is impossible. I might outwardly agree with them, just to get them to stop. In my mind, however, it's still the God's honest truth. 'Riding out' delusions for me does necessarily mean not believing, it means calming down and having the presence of mind not to blurt them out to people like my co-workers. I'm rapidly becoming the office weirdo. Fortunately, I have a friend here (work) who knows about my condition. I told her about what I thought my PC was doing, and she escorted me away from everyone and let me calm down. Next time, I might not be so lucky.

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I don't think it would help. I've had friends sit me down and tell a particular delusion is impossible. I might outwardly agree with them, just to get them to stop. In my mind, however, it's still the God's honest truth. 'Riding out' delusions for me does necessarily mean not believing, it means calming down and having the presence of mind not to blurt them out to people like my co-workers. I'm rapidly becoming the office weirdo. Fortunately, I have a friend here (work) who knows about my condition. I told her about what I thought my PC was doing, and she escorted me away from everyone and let me calm down. Next time, I might not be so lucky.

Why wouldn't you go to your pdoc for a medication adjustment? From what you've been saying, it sounds like your only solution save continuing to have the delusions which may soon cost you your job and other things you hold dear.

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I don't think it would help. I've had friends sit me down and tell a particular delusion is impossible. I might outwardly agree with them, just to get them to stop. In my mind, however, it's still the God's honest truth.

I get exactly the same with my delusions. When I am in the middle of them, I cannot accept any 'evidence' against my beliefs. Unfortunately, this usually means that I will just try and discredit what other people are saying. There is only one delusion that I am actually able to reality check whilst I am in the middle of it, and that is thought broadcasting. Don't ask me why though, because I don't have a clue. If I knew I would apply it to all my other delusions and probably not have a problem.

But if you are not in a position to do any reality checking, you might either need a med change or to learn reality checking techniques in therapy. I know I could really use the latter.

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