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So um... I've been reading this website for quite some time, but just recently joined. I'm a 24 year old who looks like a 16 year old (or so everyone says), and I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder (not exactly sure what type, since I only got through one session with the therapist before they started screwing with the scheduling), PTSD, and severe depression. I self harm, and I have for a very long time. It's just gotten worse recently, and it doesn't help that my ex is using it as an excuse to say that I'm emotionally manipulating him because I asked him to help me quit. I just hide it from him now.

I'll go onto something more positive now...

I'm a professional baker, and I absolutely love it. :3 I'm also quite the artist. It keeps me sane. My deviantart is http://waterelemental.deviantart.com/ if anyone wishes to check it out. I love loosing myself in books, the internet, video games, and music. I play french horn, and I sometimes compose my own music. I used to write, but I kinda stopped after a wave of depression made me burn all that I wrote because I hated it so much. Other than that, I'm just your average introvert.

Thanks for taking your time to read this.

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Hi Ottery! I was a baker - artisan breads - before my body broke and made me stop. I miss it. There's nothing like being head-down-arse-up in a hundred-gallon mixer scooping up arms-full of warm, pillowy bready goodness to go "FWOMP" onto the shaping table, is there? Or are you the purty-stuff kind of baker? Closest I got to the purty stuff was holiday breads, croissants and brioche... I was wretched at doing cakes and suchlike things in quantity, I'd panic and they'd go to crap and I'd get yelled at and panic some more and it was just bad all around. LOL Anyway, welcome!

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