I suffer both kinds of insomnia. Thanks to a great job, it is much improved.
That said, on Sunday I realized that I was too alert and that insomnia was pending. I did everything I could to relax, but by 2AM, I emailed my workplace to call in sick. Just allowing myself a possible sick day usually does wonders. I finally fell asleep a few hours later. At 9:45 I shot out of bed, suddenly certain that I had an appointment with a client at work at 10AM. Panic and hopping into pants ensued with a lovely comb embedded in my hair and a toothbrush hanging from my mouth. I got to work by 10AM, only to discover that I had confused my schedule. The appointment was at 2PM the following day. Ah well, I was awake and at work. Two hours of sick leave, woo hoo.
But I was so relieved that I hadn't missed the appointment, that it put me in a good mood and made me wonder: Is a good day the absence of a bad one?
I love my job. It pays poorly, but they compensate with flexible hours, good benefits, and a wonderful work environment. My supervisors are great at teaching while still making me feel competent. They do not know that I am bipolar, and I would prefer that it stay that way. I'd rather them not wonder if I'm going to 'go crazy one of these days.'
Little do they know, I'm crazy every single day, but I've gotten good at hiding it.
Mood (-10 to +10):
Monday: +5, took 50mgs of Zoloft
Tuesday: +6 , no Zoloft. Minor dizziness.