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I have only ever been psychotic once, and I believe it was the result of withdrawal from anti-psychotics. People had black eyes, they looked like monsters, etc... (I posted about it here, and thank you for all of the replies, by the way!!)

The other day, however, I left my house and felt things felt very... STRANGE. I wasn't depressed or anxious, though. Instead, things felt off-balance, and "not right". I began hallucinating things jumping from one spot to the other, so I came home. When I got inside, I began to hallucinate people lying on beds in my house, and other things that weren't there. I became afraid and went and laid in my bed. I saw spiders spinning giant webs that formed images of people. I kept reaching forward to touch them, but they vanished. Then I hallucinated someone changing a radio quickly from song to song. I looked out to see if it was my neighbor, but he wasn't home, and the songs were changing too quickly for that to be the case.

I ultimately went to sleep. Next day I felt on edge and anxious but much better. I was tired, so could these hallucinations be the result of this? The only thing that worries me is that I've never hallucinated before, and I've gone days without sleep while hypomanic...

Anyway, this is a bit of a long post, but any stories/help would be appreciated.. I will bring it up with my pdoc, but I just wanted to post it here, because it was very scary, especially hearing the music and seeing people who weren't really there.

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I'm BP II also, and hallucinate in similar ways. Make sure to call your pDoc as soon as you can reach him/her, don't just wait until the next appointment. Right now, I don't take any medication to try and calm them, only because I haven't found one that works yet, but there are a lot of meds that can cool that shit off quick fast.

Surprising that we share some of the visual and auditory things. I have head-chatter and occasionally voices, but the most constant thing is like a radio in another room, with the door closed. Just at the edge of what's audible and what isn't, a pattern out there, the low murmur of voices or watery strains of music, sometimes a little crescendo of laughter, but too soft to really tell what's being said or what song it is. (Yep, hearing that as we speak.)

People warping and twisting is also a common one for me. People in crowds start to stare, they don't blink, their eyes darken, they look hateful, malefic, etc.

Definitely let your pDoc know. It might be a sign of a coming swing.

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Definitely tell your pdoc about this. The last thing you want is for something like this to get worse.

One of my hallucinations that I get is people in my home. It really freaks me out. I end up thinking 'how did they get there?' and things like that. It makes me feel completely unsafe when it happens. And I have only recently learnt that if I didn't hear my door go (and also I keep my door locked 24/7) then I can tell myself that they aren't real. That has helped a lot.

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I'd agree to call pdoc. There are many things that can knock this out fairly rapidly. You have room to increase your AAP, for example. Or add something different for a short time. You want to make sure it does not keep happening.

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Sounds like that one movie Jacobs Ladder where the guy would see Monster like ghoul things.He was in the Military which may have sparked his hallucinations.This mostly means you have seen to much in your life or something has made you look at things in an odd way.

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Sounds like that one movie Jacobs Ladder where the guy would see Monster like ghoul things.He was in the Military which may have sparked his hallucinations.This mostly means you have seen to much in your life or something has made you look at things in an odd way.

Wait, WHAT? This is complete crap. Movies are not real life.

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