inkterra Posted October 9, 2011 Share Posted October 9, 2011 Hey everyone, I'm new here. Normally when I come to a forum, I spend a while lurking before I can work up the courage to post something, but I thought id be a little more outgoing this time. I'm currently diagnosed with Tourette's syndrome, Bipolar II, OCD, ADHD, and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. The reason I came here is to get more information on OCD, since I think that's my main problem right now, but I'm not completely certain. I went off all my meds about a year ago, and was doing much better and feeling much better than I ever have, but I've decided to go back on the meds because of my problems which are listed below. heres some info on my problem for anyone who's interested: About 2 months ago, something triggered me to start having a lot of thoughts about death, which included images in my mind of me killing people, dissecting people(horrible, i know), and many other gruesome things. Sometimes i feel as if these things are an urge, but its not something i would ever want to act on. These thoughts are usually accompanied by extreme anxiety and sometimes panic attacks. Ive never been a very social person, but I've cut off my contact with almost everyone since I started having this problem. I put myself in a mental hospital about a month and a half ago to see if i could get some help there, but it did absolutely no good at all. All i could think about when i was there was getting out and i constantly had what seemed like urges to go around attacking everybody at the hospital. I never harmed anyone though. I still have the same problem. Sometimes the thoughts seem to die down, and sometimes they seem to get stronger. Ive stopped watching violent movies and listening to a lot of my music and stopped playing a lot of my video games for the fear that they might trigger me. I avoid anything sharp and have gotten to the point where I'm not sure I can even trust myself anymore. I feel like I'm losing my entire life. I haven't had any problems with OCD since I was a child, and they never involved intrusive thoughts, but what I'm currently leaning towards is that these are intrusive thoughts caused by OCD. Anybody have any ideas or suggestions that can help me? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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