Hedea Posted October 18, 2011 Share Posted October 18, 2011 Hi there. I have a blog over at CrazyMeds, and just recently found out about CB. All I can say is...most excellent! (btw-- best ToS I've ever read.) Same username on CrazyMeds, although I started out there as th3vil0ne, so that may be the name to search for, I don't quite know. A bit of a bio... I've been in and out of treatment for one disorder or another for about 11 or 12 years now. That places me around the age of 11 or 12 when all of the fun began (do the math and you can deduce my current age!). It's been a most fantastic roller coaster since then. I won't bother you with all of the details, but here I am now. I have a BA in Psychology, and I minored in Elementary Ed. Right now I work full-time as a community support staff for two women with developmental disorders and medical concerns, including epilepsy (which, honestly, scares the crap outta me). It's stressful and a huuge migraine trigger, but overall it's a pretty good job. i'm also a facilitator for the WRAP program, started by mary ellen copeland. google it if you aren't familiar with the program, it's pretty sweet, and has really helped me overcome some of my issues. After many changes, I hold the dx of bipolar II (mood disorder NOS is on the chart to avoid stigma, but bpII is the 'working dx' as my dr puts it), social anxiety disorder (previously could not leave the house), ADHD (or ADD, hard time keeping them straight...), migraines, and fibromyalgia. I've got a bit of a tremor from my meds, which we thought was from my lithium, but apparently other meds are causing it too (especially if I drink coffee). I just got off my lithium (wooo!) after three years. It's triggered a nice cycle of hypomania and then depression once we evened my meds out for the hypomania. Faaaantastic. Did a brief trial of Zoloft for the depression, which made my anxiety skyrocket, and distinct, debilitating panic symptoms to reoccur after a few years of remission. So we just stopped that, thank God, but I've still got til Thursday for it to be completely out of my system. Right now I'm kind of in a mixed state, so I apologize for the rambling. I can't sleep and I have 'verbal diarrhea' as one of my high school professors described it (charming, right? no wonder i'm so fucked up). Plus my anxiety is escalated, and the "I suck" monster is running rampant. so, hello, I hope I have not broken some rule, I read the ToS but my memory at the moment is extremely limited. So I don't remember much, except that it's awesome. And I'm off on another tangent.... good night~ [Edited to put some space in between paragraphs. And to create more paragraphs and less run-on thoughts. ty to olga for pointing the bit about space in between paragraphs! ] Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rowan77 Posted October 18, 2011 Share Posted October 18, 2011 Welcome!! I think you'll like it here. Everyone is very helpful. I did the WRAP programme too and thought it was amazing. It really helped change my life Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hedea Posted October 18, 2011 Author Share Posted October 18, 2011 Thanks! WRAP really helped change my life as well. I went from hardly being able to leave the house (my mom attended the workshop with me so that I would go) to going through the facilitator training, and my first workshop as a co-facilitator just ended last night. However dc'ing my lithium has put me on the mood roller coaster again and my panic symptoms have returned (as I mentioned before) and I can't say I have anything in my toolbox or plan to get me past these panic attacks!! Gah! But yes. Thank you for welcoming me! Everything I've read in the forum so far seems great. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
olga Posted October 18, 2011 Share Posted October 18, 2011 Welcome to CB! I know you said you are going through a tough time right now, so please don't think I'm being critical---but some of us have difficulty reading big blocks of print. When you write an entry, just hit the enter key now and then to make paragraphs. You'll get more responses because then everyone can read your post. I'm glad you are here and I hope we can offer you some support and information. You will find that this is a friendly bunch of coconuts! olga Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hedea Posted October 19, 2011 Author Share Posted October 19, 2011 I will make sure to do that -- thank you for letting me know! I kind of squint and it works. But for those of whom squinting does not work I will gladly go edit my original post I enjoy your avatar, btw. Very distinguished kitteh! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dedoubt Posted October 19, 2011 Share Posted October 19, 2011 HI! (I'm ... not quite right just now.... so... yah....) Anyway, I can't really read much right now. So I bopped around in your post and I put together an idea of who you are. Thoroughbred, live in Kentucky, won some derby? Right? Wait. Um, one thing I did see, or two things, actually, is ONE you live in New England. Me too. NH. The second being that you were about 11 or 12 when this started for you? I was younger, but I feel your pain. It sucks. Did you start treatment then? I didn't, not until I was in my 30's, but my youngest kid is 9 1/2 & I'm taking him in for a psych eval on Thursday. I am hoping the pdoc just tells me I'm crazy, because we know that, and that my kid is just smarter than me. I also know that. Gah, I'm really disordered and should go to bed. Well come, this is a great place. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
olga Posted October 19, 2011 Share Posted October 19, 2011 I will make sure to do that -- thank you for letting me know! I kind of squint and it works. But for those of whom squinting does not work I will gladly go edit my original post I enjoy your avatar, btw. Very distinguished kitteh! Hedea, thanks. I'm one of the people who have difficulty with that, so I'm glad you weren't offended. The kitty is my boy, Phil Jackson. He is very serious! We call him the Rodent Control Officer around here. olga Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hedea Posted October 19, 2011 Author Share Posted October 19, 2011 Um, one thing I did see, or two things, actually, is ONE you live in New England. Me too. NH. The second being that you were about 11 or 12 when this started for you? I was younger, but I feel your pain. It sucks. Did you start treatment then? I didn't, not until I was in my 30's, but my youngest kid is 9 1/2 & I'm taking him in for a psych eval on Thursday. I am hoping the pdoc just tells me I'm crazy, because we know that, and that my kid is just smarter than me. I also know that. I do indeed live in New England! VT, to be exact. Over on that side that boarders with NH. I kind of started treatment when I was around 11/12. My parents brought me to a bunch of therapists, and I didn't like any of them. Then one doc recommended a temporary anti-depressant and my parents went all "AAHHH NOOOO NOT OUR LIL DAUGHTER SHE IS NOT CRAZY" and that was that. It wasn't until halfway through high school that they started allowing docs to prescribe me stuff. I didn't like any of them so I stopped taking each one (literally chucked one out a window). Lots of fun. And better to take the kiddo in for something he doesn't need than ignore something that he may very well actually need. I hope today finds you feeling a bit less disordered and that you got some sleep The kitty is my boy, Phil Jackson. He is very serious! We call him the Rodent Control Officer around here. olga I bet he does a very good job with the rodents! He could probably take one look and they go scurrying the other way! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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