gang of junebugs Posted December 5, 2011 Share Posted December 5, 2011 Hi, I surfed in from the Crazy Meds board as well... I have a long history of seeking help. I saw my first shrink at 14.The diagnosis I finally received in about 2000 puzzles me, as in, what is it? Is it a personality disorder? Is it schizophrenia? Or is it society putting a label on certain people they cannot/do not want to understand? From this forum and the other one the most common dxs are forms of bipolar and I see very few people with schizotypal. I have had horrible experiences while trying to take antipsychotic drugs even though they are recommended for my diagnosis. I have been on and off mostly on antidepressants for 18 years. Last year, I was stricken with anxiety so bad I could not sleep, nor read a book, nor even sit still. I ended up not only with yet another rx of antidepressants but now I need anxiety meds and a pill to sleep. I feel I'm too dependent on drugs but do not want to go back where I was this time last year. If an antipsychotic would work for me without giving me the crippling anxiety I get on them, I would try it (maybe) again. Some of them are literally hell in a pill. I'm not as young as I used to be and am sick of being stuck in life. I have been on benefits for more than a decade but am afraid to go back to work and lose my health benefits. I feel that the "ticket to work" is probably a bag of cr*p. All I ever got from work was fired usually anyway. I've been there and done that with volunteering. A lot of the same politics and bs go on there as well. Off meds I felt more creative and intelligent but of course I was more edgy, bitchy, and anxious and could not "get along" with people. If the frontier opens up again, maybe I'll become a "mountain lady". Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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