Crane Posted December 15, 2011 Share Posted December 15, 2011 Hello everyone. I´m a 35- year old guy from Finland. My crazy -history began in late teens with depression, although I realized it only after several years. It was my primary "problem" and "nemesis" for years, I ate pills for it for over nine years. I just recently, about two months ago quit doing Cymbalta, my last depression med. The withdrawals from Cymbalta very nearly killed me, or that´s how I feel about the experience. I feel that I have gotten pretty much over the depression, but from under it GAD has revealed itself. I feel GAD to be worse than depression, it´s more disabilitating for me at least. My only med at the moment is alprazolam, that I take when the anxiety gets too bad. I get addicted very easily,and that´s why I hate eating the alprazolam; it helps with the GAD-symptoms so well that I would like to eat it all the time... Life feels pretty bad at the moment. Here in southern Finland it´s under six hours of daylight this time of year, which really doesn´t help. I´m trying to force myself to go to work everyday, because losing my job would be a disaster. I worry about everything; the global financial crisis, MY own (perpetual) financial crisis, my own health and that of loved ones... I´m glad I found this forum. I´ve seen others like it, but somehow this one seems different. Better I hope I will get to know people here, and maybe give some advice to someone and receive some from others. Nobody else can understand a lunatic but another lunatic I hate the guilty feelings I get when I do something to upset people, something that was a result of my head not working the way it should... it´s not an excuse to behaving badly,being irritated etc., but if someone doesn´t do something because they miss a leg, for example, people don´t get upset at them because they can see the reason. But if you are on a bad mood because of your mental illness, it´s usually thought that "his an asshole" or at least "irritating" or whatever... well anyways, hello. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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