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Ok where to start... hate this... ok I'm 21 and I'll tell a brief of my story. I had a great infancy lets say before 9 years blahblahbla but at some point I started to get more and more introverted and "fragile". Later got bullied in school. My adolescence was conflicting. at 18 i started to use LSD, it was fantastic and so I realized that I needed help for my depression. ok. Soon I started to do cocaine and soon alot of coke and u know- rehab bolocks. in the meantime got various "suicidal" attempts (but never intended to kill myself, just self-harm or so). OK thats a just little of my life and would be impossible to write it all cuz i dont remember alot. THE POINT IS. Im diagnosed with Major Depression, Borderline Disorder, Generalized Anxiety, Bipolar and ADHD (is it even possible to have all of these disorders together, if not more?). Thats what I know cuz my psych hides the rest. I can say that I tried almost all antidepressants/antipsychs/stimul/anxiolytics and never got good results. also many illegal drugs. So far, recently i've switched my ritalin 60mg to vyvanse 100mg. I must tell you, it changed my life 180 degrees. Now I can feel normal, positive, calm, motivated etc. and not anymore irritable, depressed, craving drugs/alcohol, self-harmfull etc.

Why vyvanse solved all the problems that the others didnt? is that possible cause I dont see so many people using it as a anti-depressant other than just for ADHD? What i mean, vyvanse makes me awesome because makes me fell normal. I know its an amphetamine and is addictive blah blah. I really dont care as much as i dont get tolerance (which i'm not). I don't feel euphoria, feel nromal happyness. It also feels natural. Sure taking a higher dosage would be euphoric, but i dont plain to do so, its like im healed from drug abuse now. Anyway I like to share my experience, maybe some others with resistant-depression who dont respond to traditional ad's should try this shit.

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That's great that you found something that works for you. Definitely tell your pdoc this, if you haven't. It's interesting that you would post this today, because my 16 yo son was just talking to me about all the ways Vyvanse has benefitted him, including that he hasn't felt depressed since he started taking it last spring. I just started Adderall (basically the same thing as Vyvanse) a month ago, and it definitely makes me calmer & less anxious, which is great.

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That's great news, glad you have found something that works for you. :) Just wish i could.. :(

Are you borderline?

Ask your doc to try it. if you haven't tried any type of amphetamine before could work like it did to me. Im curious ok, but its not my intention to medicate yourself, just seeing that you suffer from symptoms like me i guess its worth a try. Be safe.

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I'm on Vyvanse for schizoaffective disorder (the depression from it) and I'm on 60mg of it. I don't find that it's enough and plan on asking my next doctor for more of it.

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