crtclms Posted April 3, 2012 Share Posted April 3, 2012 I bumped my lithium just under a week ago. I know I have written some novels here in the past. But for the last couple of days, I am really vomiting words onto the page. But I feel like I can't leave out a single detail of what I have written, and that I am as succinct as I could possibly be, even though I know on some level that isn't true. It is making me feel self-conscious about posting. I talk myself into it, but I feel a little out of control, I can't seem to stop "expressing" myself, and I keep thinking of more "important" details that I have to tell you about. I know this can be a symptom of mania, and have found a few sources that say it could also happen while depressed. But I have been depressed for a while, and there is no way I am hypo, even if my depression may be improving. I'm not saying I couldn't end up hypo, I just mean I can't be hypo right now. Plus, isn't it sort of impossible for me to get hypo because of lithium? I understand that I can get hypo while medicated with lithium, but I mean the lithium itself can't cause it, can it? This over-writing really started within the last few days. Even my husband has noticed it. Could this be the lithium? Could it be a very mild mixed-state? Is there even such a think as a "mild" mixed state? My sleep has been more restful, even though I am still on an insane schedule. I am sleeping a little less than normal, but I have been through this entire episode. The change is that now I feel like I am getting "good" sleep. See what I mean? I can't stop. I feel like there are 1000 more details you need to know before you can answer, and I am forcing myself to stop. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
amosleigh Posted April 3, 2012 Share Posted April 3, 2012 I know you've spoken of your extensive migraine suffering. I don't get as many as you but I've found after I come off a migraine I suddenly am more chatty than normal. This passes after a couple of hours. I don't know if it's med related from the Triptans I take, it's some kind of relief that the headache is over, or some weird psychological phenomenon. Just my two cents. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
NullChamber Posted April 3, 2012 Share Posted April 3, 2012 http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3172454/ maybe somewhat relevant? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Squid Posted April 3, 2012 Share Posted April 3, 2012 I am the same way. I am on lithium, but I was like this before I took it. I just constantly remind myself to write only what is necessary: That's my starting point. Then I proofread everything and cut out any excess, which is sometimes a lot. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
crtclms Posted April 3, 2012 Author Share Posted April 3, 2012 Null, that is good information for me to know, if I consider stopping it. But I am pretty sure I am going to be staying on lithium, at least for now. Maybe I should keep an eye out for hypo, I guess I could just be having a big swing that correlates with the bump, and isn't caused by it. Usually I go from hypo to depressed, but my sx have totally changed in the last decade. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dedoubt Posted April 3, 2012 Share Posted April 3, 2012 Is it possible you are feeling *better* and therefore feeling more compelled to write? Not better in a hypo way, but just all around feeling good? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gearhead Posted April 3, 2012 Share Posted April 3, 2012 Is it possible you are feeling *better* and therefore feeling more compelled to write? Not better in a hypo way, but just all around feeling good? I was wondering that, too. Sometimes I notice little things like wanting to write more or being more able to deal with household chores before I notice that I really feel better. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
crtclms Posted April 3, 2012 Author Share Posted April 3, 2012 It is totally possible. I actually would hesitantly say that I am improving. I still seem to collapse at some point during the day, and the weekend wasn't great, but I have times when I feel okay. I hope that's what it is. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
crtclms Posted April 3, 2012 Author Share Posted April 3, 2012 In fact that would totally rock, because I am also getting an inkling that the second round of Botox might be working. I haven't been stable since last June. Maybe I just forgot what it feels like. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gizmo Posted April 3, 2012 Share Posted April 3, 2012 I don't think there is any evidence of lithium pushing you to hypo. I just scanned your responses (gotta go fix dinner) but could it be that a reduction of headache pain is making you feel more like yourself? When you felt better, you used to write some epic blog posts Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bpladybug Posted April 3, 2012 Share Posted April 3, 2012 I don't think it is the lithium pushing you into verbosity. I think you feel better, and your natural talents, you education, your lawyerly skills are coming out. Or maybe less headache is giving your brain freedom! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Becks Posted April 4, 2012 Share Posted April 4, 2012 I really am hoping it's because you are feeling better! Being unstable for so long and then slowly getting back to "normal" (for lack of a better word) can feel so alien, can't it? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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