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New On Crazyboards, BUT So Not New To Mental Problems!

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I'm not even sure where to start...so I'll just try to go with my recent situation. I've had depression & anxiety for over half my life, so still dealing with that. At some point developed a huge drug addiction problem (worse thing EVER for people who already have mental problems!!!!!!:( I don't know if your mind ever gets right again:( &i mean EVER! Was diagnosed with chronic fatigue syndrom at least ten years ago. Found out about a year ago, pretty positive it's narcolepsy. Fought to not get on yet another medication, until I couldn't handle the fatigue/difficulty functioning. Was already on Effexor XR, xanax,& Subutex (still am on all 3). And ended up on Provigil. After 10 months of Provigil, thought I was losing my mind at the end! Went off cold turkey about a month ago, & SEVERELY SUFFERING FROM FATIGUE & DEPRESSION:( Of course there's like 1,000 pages I could write on everything & exactly how the heck I ended up in my hell, but wanted to keep it short for now. .Just got prescribed Deplin to try after reading the reviews on here, but didn't try it yet. ALL I KNOW IS THAT I CANNOT GO ON LIKE THIS:(! IT'S TERRIBLE! SO ANY SUGGESTIONS ARE 100% WELCOME...

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Hiya.

Chronic fatigue is a horrible thing, especially on top of depression.

I don't have any med suggestions for now, but welcome to crazyboards. Please let us know if you have any questions.

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Thanks for the replies;) Since I'm new to here, I guess this should maybe go in another place...but I just wanted to say, that I did try taking deplin last night. Only took half of a 15tab, due to if there's side effects to be gotten,i get them! Anyhow, oh my goodness I AM SO EXTREMELY TIRED TODAY,I CAN'T EVEN THINK STRAIGHT!:( I think when I feel a little better, I will look around on here & figure out where to post stuff like this. Thanks for listening though...

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Welcome! I have idiopathic hypersomnia so I can relate to your issues with chronic fatigue, it is really rough.

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Hello and welcome.

I've fought depression for a quarter of a century, and after a very interesting last twelve months I've now got a diagnosis of chronic fatigue syndrome as well. To sit with my very late-diagnosed Asperger's syndrome.

This not to play "comparative conditions", but to be able to say there are bits of your experience that I have some appreciation of.

I've found a good (for me) Chronic Fatigue support group on-line, and that has helped, as has Crazyboards here, with both serious stuff and light relief. There are good people around.

Regards, Chris.

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hey i go day to day just wishing i would pass away. this is a new thing. i used to be full of life and happy thoughts, but now the voices in my head are drowned by depression & anxiety. i guess the new meds i'm on are helping some, after years of trying others. i've been dx'd with bipolar depression, anxiety, ptsd and bpd. still, i isolate & and am very shy. i try to act like everything's normal but feel like i'm trapped inside myself with my true feelings. hs anyone ever felt this way?

also i have health issues like cfids, fibro, cp, ibs, gout....it sucks.

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Hello & welcome to CB! :) I hope the new med works. It can take awhile though, it sucks.

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Just wanted to say thanks again for all replies. & curious as for Emmitman (sorry if I got that wrong I cant see the name now), I do remember Chris though.... it's nice to know your not completely alone, although it feels like it. Also, its terribly hard for me even functioning day to day. If you don't mind me asking, & only if you wish to answer, are you on meds for the CFS? It's hard to get the help I need, when I'm too tired to go to the darn appointments! I know there's no miracle med, trust me,i know. But just to be able tho semi function how I need to...

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Also, wanted to say to "experimental", I can't speak for anyone else, but I've definitely been there & I'm sure that many others have as well. I truly feel for you. It's unfortunate for any human being to have to feel this way! For myself, I haven't been the happy type since I was a child, so I don't much know any other way than this. I'm sorry that I don't have any suggestions..but I can honestly say that YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

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