SR-71A Posted May 3, 2012 Share Posted May 3, 2012 Greetings: So, who the hell am I? I am a female in my mid-40s, twice widowed by age 39 [Note: both men died of natural causes... just in case you wondered]. Childless by choice. I have been treated for depression since my 20s, but have had depression, PTSD and anxiety/panic since I was about 6. I take my meds to keep the suicidal thoughts at bay, not bc they make me feel better. All of the above, I can handle and hide quite well. I was actually hired in my current position for my "people skills", heh. If they only knew. What's brought me here: I have become terrified of so many things: mail, phone calls; worst is someone knocking on the door. Most of my anxiety relates to finances and money but not all. I also feel a serious cognitive decline in the last 10 yrs or so, most of all in the past 3 years. It's just a feeling; there's been no testing,etc. Scary. Despite being with a great guy for the last year, the anxiety, depression and self-loathing have only persisted in getting worse. Very troubling. I'm scared and I'm hurting like a mofo. I feel very alone. My bf is supportive, but he cannot fully understand. I came here for the implicit understanding and support of peers. This seemed like a very appropriate place to discuss things. I may lurk for a while, but I'll be reading. Thank you all. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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