TakeAChillPill Posted May 13, 2012 Share Posted May 13, 2012 I am putting my new "about me" stuff in here because I figured people would read it and comment on it if I put it all here. So here it goes: Hi. Today is Sunday May 13th, 2012, aka, Mother's Day. I've decided to change my "about me" stuff on my profile this morning. My real name is Linda. I'm currently 31 and will be 32 in September. I have never had any children and have never been pregnant. Its because I've never tried to get pregnant. I haven't dated since high school. When I was 17 I started taking Zyprexa because I was paranoid and delusional. I was paranoid that aliens were out to get me. I got delusional over every single guy I became obsessed with to the point of thinking every person I had a crush on was "the one" even if they showed zero interest in me or were not even available. Zyprexa wiped out my libido 100% I stopped taking Zyprexa when I was 18 and I'm 31 now and I still have had zero libido no matter whether I am on meds or off. I've spent plenty of time off all meds to know that I'm not getting my sex life back any time soon if at all for that matter. Zyprexa stole a lot from me but it also was helpful during the short time I was on it. It gave me the ability to sleep and took away all my fears and delusional obsessions. Not only did it make me asexual it also made my childhood memories become nothing more than a vague blur. I used to have an extremely sharp memory about all of my life experiences....until I took Zyprexa. Even though it was therapeutic in some ways it was also detrimental. AT age 18 I went off Zyprexa cold turkey and went into a horrid withdrawal period where my anxiety and depression were through the roof but I was laughing hysterically to myself (as though I had tourettes) almost 24/7. If I was awake, and that was most of the time, I was shrieking and laughing like a mad lunatic. This lasted approximately a year and a half. I've really mellowed out a lot since then. I've been on and off meds frequently but I never experienced anything as terrible as the Zyprexa withdrawal again. I have been on ABilify 20mg and Prozac 20mgs for two years and have been completely stable and not totally zombie-like. I was zombie-like on the Zyprexa. I have friends and I get out and do things. I lead a normal boring life. I don't have a job but I did have a job for a few years- 2006-2009, I bagged groceries and brought in carts at a grocery store. I have gained lots of weight over the years and currenlty need to lose 150lbs. Maybe if I had even a aprt time job I would start losing weight. Maybe I'm just not active enough. Adolescence was a bitch to me. It made me mildly bipolar and mildy schizoaffective. Thankfully I have really settled into adulthood without mood swings or delusional thinking. I may be asexual now but I should always look on the brighter side of things. FYI- i was born with an eye disorder that I get to keep for the rest of my life. Its called Nystagmus. My eyes shake back and forth, side to side. Sometimes its more severe than at other times. Sometimes it's barely noticeable. I had to deal with a LOT of bullying in school because of this disorder. My parents love me but have had times where they have been emotionally/verbally abusive and at times even little bit physically abusive. This started very early on and things escalated when I was a teenager and now they hardly ever even raise their voice at me. They seem to have learned patience and a bunch of other good things. I applaud their attitude towards me these days. :-) I realize that they didn't know how to handle me and all of my differences. Thats about it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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