koali777 Posted May 13, 2012 Share Posted May 13, 2012 Not that I'm trying to threaten or guilt anyone...I just mean that I am finally getting that emotional flatness that I hate about AAPs. Usually they make me that way after a few weeks. Latuda has taken 10 weeks to finally do it to me. What's weird is that on Geodon or Risperdal, I was unable to read. Now, I am able to read, but have NO desire. I don't want to watch TV or movies, I don't want to play any of my myriad of video games, I don't want to take a walk, I don't want to read, I don't want to do legos, etc. I want nothing, and feel nothing, which probably means I'm not even depressed about this, but definitely frustrated. I'm having like 600 mg of caffeine a day now which I know is stupid. But I feel nothing till I do that. I want to be wasted all the time. I want to quit Wellbutrin to smoke again. I'm a mess and yet not at all...I don't know how else to counter this. I don't see my pdoc for a month. My Adderall has run out and there are no refills. And I know I shouldn't be doing drugs or drinking all the time. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted May 13, 2012 Share Posted May 13, 2012 Maybe this is just a blip? Sometimes that happens and you ride it out and things get better. How about giving that a try? Don't quit your meds. You know that only leads to "bad things." Why did you run out of Adderall? Are you taking it at a faster rate than prescribed? If not, could you call your pdoc and get some more? Mine will leave me an Rx in the lobby when I'm out and I just run by and get it since it can't be called in. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
koali777 Posted May 13, 2012 Author Share Posted May 13, 2012 Nah...it's unfortunate but I purposely asked to be taken off of it because I felt it made me psychotic, so I don't have a prescription anymore. Now I'm kicking myself for it. But you're right..."bad things" both in mood and physical discomfort. I hope it is a blip as you said, because I just want to feel better. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Catnapper Posted May 13, 2012 Share Posted May 13, 2012 Why not call your pdoc on Monday morning and see if they can work you in? A month is a long time away when you're not doing well, and I think it sounds like you're not doing well. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mnemosyne Posted May 13, 2012 Share Posted May 13, 2012 Don't o off your meds. Do as Catnapper said - call your Dr. If you tell them you aren't weel, the meds aren't working, you're considering stopping and you're self-medicating, surely they will get you in. They won't just leave you hanging out there. You KNOW what will happen if you go off meds. I don't know if your doc has ever counseled you on what happens to your brain and your disorder when you go off and on your meds, but mine Explained it thus: you are essentially training your brain to relapse. Each time your episodes will occur closer together, more quickly. Each time it will be worse. Your brain has done it so many times before it just gets easier - like when you take up a new hobby and get better at it each time you practice. It's technically called 'kindeling', but I refuse to refer to it that way because, IMHO, that's teh stupidest name ever. So there. Point being, you don't want that. I used to go on and off meds. I KNOW it gets worse and worse. I also know that it takes longer for my meds to work each time and I have more break through symptoms. Don't make it harder on yourself - call your doc. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FlamelessCandle Posted May 13, 2012 Share Posted May 13, 2012 Yes, definitely call for a quicker appointment. You do sound miserable. As others have suggested, this may be a blip and things can get better. I know you have been on many different meds, but please don't just stop the ones you are on now until you and your doc can figure out a plan. Reading along and caring; sorry I don't have more to say. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
koali777 Posted May 14, 2012 Author Share Posted May 14, 2012 You all made me feel cared about and understood...thank you. You've probably all had similar experiences. I mean, you're right...I was crazy off my meds. Completely crazy and unable to function. Depressed then manic and anxious etc etc etc. I had not heard about the "kindeling" thing but I believe it cause it makes sense...and is scary. I won't go off the meds as much as I hate them now. Cause I'm better now than before. But yes, miserable. Thank you guys. I'm about to take my Latuda now...take it day by day. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
matthewmurphyj Posted May 14, 2012 Share Posted May 14, 2012 Perhaps a typical antipsychotic would work for you, Trilafon or Haldol are good choices from personal experience. The advantage of these medicines is that they sometimes cause less cognitive impairment and do not cause much weight gain. They also didn't effect my cognition much. Anticholinergic drugs however will, so try to minimize your exposure to these drugs and your feelings of bluntness should be less. But as always confer with your doctor and decide your treatment plan with him or her. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
koali777 Posted May 14, 2012 Author Share Posted May 14, 2012 I could do that maybe, or suggest it...I've heard both good and bad comparisons between typicals and atypicals. And the less cognitive impairment would be wonderful. Thankfully Latuda hasn't caused weight gain. I hope it is a blip because I really loved Latuda. I felt a little better after being in the sun yesterday. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
matthewmurphyj Posted May 16, 2012 Share Posted May 16, 2012 Maybe you should try an antidepressant in addition to what you're already taking to help with what you're feeling. Perhaps you should try Remeron? Or, you could try Etrafon, which is a combination of Stelazine, a typical antipsychotic, and amitryptiline, a tricyclic antidepressant? Either one may help to fill in what you're not getting from the Latuda and the rest of your current regimen. A different route might be Nuvigil. Nuvigil is a drug that promotes wakefullness and gives you an extra boost of energy. Good luck! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gizmo Posted May 16, 2012 Share Posted May 16, 2012 I say you should get the adderall again. Simply tell the doctor that, after being off the medication, you see what a difference it really does make in your life and you'd like to get back on it. I can't imagine your pdoc would fail to see this point of view. I've been slowly increasing my adderall and I am starting to feel much better now. Not completely better, but I do know there is a difference in my mood (able to do things to total apathy and somewhat restless) when I take it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
koali777 Posted May 19, 2012 Author Share Posted May 19, 2012 I think I will do that then. I feel dead without it. It sounds terrible I know, especially since I have addictive tendencies. But I don't feel motivated or that I love anyone etc. BTW another thing that'll keep me on my meds..remind me of how bad the withdrawal symptoms were, if any of you quit cold turkey or were even going off of them the right way. That may scare me enough lol. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Indigo 'n dye Posted May 19, 2012 Share Posted May 19, 2012 Is your diabetes under strict control? Have you noticed a correlation between skewed blood glucose readings and how you are feeling? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
koali777 Posted May 20, 2012 Author Share Posted May 20, 2012 Is your diabetes under strict control? Have you noticed a correlation between skewed blood glucose readings and how you are feeling? Definitely. I've gotten em better again...when I'm stressed they go crazy, but they're working out finally. It does affect my moods, I dislike how that works Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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