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I hate having to do this kind of thing. Don't get me wrong - I appreciate the introductions that everyone else makes and I completely understand the need for these but as someone who suffers from Social Phobia, this is not my favorite thing to do. I hate the period of time after I have posted something like this because I can't escape the second-guessing. Did I say too much or not enough? Did I come across as too negative or too smartass? Did I spell (insert word) correctly? Ugh. It is exhausting being neurotic. Anyway, here goes...

I am a 40 year old female that has a big basket of diagnoses. As I mentioned, Social Phobia is one. I also have PTSD, Major Depressive Disorder and Panic Disorder. I am a survivor of severe physical and emotional abuse from my childhood at the hands of my mother. Saying that I tend to isolate is... well... is a ridiculous understatement. That is why I joined - to try to connect with some people that may understand what I go through.

I am looking forward to checking out more of the forums and I aim to keep my promise to myself to try. I have to try, right? Right. I am right about that, right? :)

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Hello there and welcome to CrazyBoards!! Hope you like it here and get the support you need....

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Hi, welcome! I'm new here too, but I thought I'd just say that people here are definitely friendly, accepting, and a very good source of information. Take care :).

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Welcome! I'm glad you took a deep breath and wrote that introduction---I can see that it was very difficult for you to do that. This is indeed a friendly crowd and I hope you will get to know some of the members and develop some on-line friendships.

Read the user agreement when you get time, and send a PM to one of the staff people if you have a question.

olga

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Thanks so much for welcoming me. It does cause me some discomfort to reach out but not doing so has failed me on every level and I am kind of excited to give something else a try. I am looking forward to getting to know some other members. It seems like a great place.

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