Stace126 Posted July 4, 2012 Share Posted July 4, 2012 Hello! I'm Stacy. I'm 27 and from Pittsburgh, PA. I'll try and keep this short and sweet: I've had anxiety for pretty much my entire life, and it waxes and wanes depending on my life situation. Right now it's rather high because I just started a new job, I'm buying a house, planning a wedding, AND trying to get my novel published. Anxiety and depression run on both sides of my family. Fun. Currently I take Buspar, which I like. I've taken Zoloft and Paxil and probably something else but I hated it. So Buspar it is. I've been to a few different therapists over the past 10-15 years, which have helped, but not "cured" me. I'm not seeing one right now because I don't have insurance and my schedule is crazy. Which is probably not the best thing in the world. Right now my biggest problems are self doubt and self loathing. There was a time in my life when I had SO much confidence, but that's slowly deteriorated into almost nothing. Although ... there are some days when I feel like I could conquer the world. Other days (most days) I feel like I'm too much of an incompetent idiot to fix myself a bowl of cereal. Sigh. The self doubt and second guessing myself is really causing problems with my relationships (friends, family, and fiance). And also at work. I feel like a little kid that has to come crying to my mommy everyday for reassurance. And while I used to be able to handle criticism, I feel like I can't anymore. I OBSESS over the tiniest comment and drive myself NUTS. Today at work, I got my first assignment from the CEO ... and I screwed up. I fixed it. But now I feel like a total dumbass and like he hates me and wants me fired. My supervisor said not to worry about it and that it wasn't entirely my fault but ... I have been having a panic attack since I left that place 4 hours ago! So .... there's me and my issues. Glad to have found this board! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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